Found: 36: The Justin Song.

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Chapter 36:

January 5th, 2013

6:00am

 

I woke up and scratched my head. I slowly squinted my eyes open and sat up and stretched my arms towards the sky. Upon opening my eyes, I realized that I was covered with a black and white comforter. I glanced around once more to realize that I was in me and Justin’s bed. This was definitely not where I fell asleep… I swung my legs to the side of the bed and got out. Justin wasn’t in sight, so I went to look for him. To my surprise, he was in the guest bedroom. He was still sleeping too.

I walked towards him and sat at the foot of the bed. He looked so peaceful and angelic as he slept so soundly. I bowed my head and let a single tear fall to my lap, crashing against my skin in pain. Just seconds after I sniffled and wiped away a single tear, Justin turned over on his side.

“(YN)?” he spoke in his morning voice.

I stood up quickly and hid my nervous hands behind me, “Oh, um… I just came to wake you up. You’re bus leaves in an hour or so.”

He breathed deeply before groaning and sitting up. I started my way towards the door and out of the room, but he called from behind me.

“Are you staying for the rest of the North American branch of the tour?”

I turned back and smiled weakly, “I won’t be going on tour with you until June, when you come back to North America. At least that’s what I heard until further notice.”

His eyes glistened sadly and I quickly left the room. I shut the door behind me and ran back into our room, shutting the door yet again and falling to my knees. Just seeing him made me wanna brake down and cry; and knowing that I couldn’t cuddle up next to him each night in that small tour bus room made me cry more.

I grabbed my notebook from the dresser drawer and began writing like I usually did when I was sad or inspired. And this is so hard ‘cause I didn’t see That you were the love of my life and it kills me. Every thought I had I wrote down, because I needed to get my thoughts on paper. I would give it all to not be sleeping alone, alone. I wrote a whole song within, what, 10 minutes? It was so easy to write when I felt like this for some reason. I slipped my notebook under my pillow just as Justin walked in.

Our eyes never met but I watched every single one of his moves as he got ready to leave. It seemed like within just seconds he was ready to go. I wanted to grab his arm as I followed him out of our room and down the stairs and beg him to stay, but I knew that I couldn’t.

“Well, I guess this is goodbye for some time.” Justin said as he turned around at the door.

“I guess it is.” I replied with pain evident in my voice.

I was at the bottom of the stairs now just as he turned to leave. I watched him turn the door knob slowly and grab the handle of his suitcase again. The door creaked open and he started walking away. Away from me… away from us… away from everything.

“Justin wait!” I yelled after him.

He turned around quickly and his face seemed to light up, “Yeah?”

My breathe was cold and my heart was beating as I thought. What was I doing? I was actually stopping him… but what was I going to say to him to make him stay? Nothing. I wouldn’t say anything.

“Call me when you get there, so I know that you made it and everything, okay?” I forced myself to say.

“I-I will.”

I watched him turn yet again and leave once more. I closed my eyes and brought my hands up to my face to wipe away the tears when the door slammed shut. Now, time to clean myself and get ready for a dreadful interview.

I walked into the studio with a casual look on myself and confidence present. I tried my best to smile and look happy, but it wasn’t as easy as it seemed when you were breaking in two in reality. I sat down next to the interviewer and we began with simple questions like how are you and all of that. This was being taped, and to my surprise it was live.

“And you have a new album coming out at the end of this month, correct?” he said with a smile.

“Yup, actually the exact date is January 29th.”

That was the first time I had announced the album and I looked back to the managers who came with me like Allison and Scrappy as they both gave me a thumbs up. I laughed a bit as the interviewer sat back in surprise.

“If I’m not mistaken, isn’t that Justin’s release date for his new album also?”

My heart skipped a beat when he said Justin’s name. I thought that I had asked for him to not be brought up, but oh well. I had to face what was coming eventually.

“Yeah, it is.” I simply said.

“Anyways, let’s move on to rumors. There’s a rumor going around that you and one directions Harry Styles are dating… true or false?”

“False… Now,” I said with a blank expression, “we’re just friends.”

“Hmm, okay. Next one, is it true that you are single and ready to mingle?”
I faked a laugh, “Yep.”

“Completely available? No one else?” he reassured himself.

“Yep..” I answered again.

“Okay, next one.”

I continued to answer every question and what not. It was fine after those little bumps we went over there. I even revealed that there would be a song about Justin on there and everyone seemed to be surprised, even Allison, Scrappy, and Scooter.

“Would you wanna tell us the name or…?”

“That’s classified information, but trust me; you’ll know what song it’ll be when you see the track list on the 29th.”

The interview ended and I walked out of the room and to Allison, Scrappy and Scooter. Scooter escorted em out of the building and we all sat outside in the parking lot talking.

“New song? Woah, you need to tell me these things you can’t just-“

“Scooter calm down. I just wrote it this morning and I was going to see if we can get it on the album.”

“I don’t know it’s kinda a late notice-“

“Scooter please.”

He sighed and mumbled, “I’ll see what I can do. I can’t believe you and Justin did the same thing…”

“Same thing- wait what do you mean?” I asked as I stopped him from walking back to his car.

“Justin is putting a last minute song on his album too that he just wrote, about you.”

I bit my lip and smiled somewhat, “he did that?”

“Look kiddo, I gotta catch a flight to Utah in a half an hour. But I’ll talk to you later tonight, bye.”

I watched him walk away and I walked back to my car. Justin wrote a song about me? I felt sad, but happy. My emotions were so mixed at the moment.

I got home and changed into comfy clothes, slouching down on the couch and eating ice cream while I watched chick flicks. Every movie made me miss Justin more, but I couldn’t stop myself from watching them all. It got late quickly because the time passed quickly while watching movies. I finished a whole bucket of ice cream, and I started to regret it immediately. I got up to throw it away and just as I came back, my phone started ringing. I least expected it was Justin, but it was. I answered it quickly while pausing the movie The Notebook.

“Hello?” I asked dumbly.

“Hey, I just thought I’d call before my performance.” Justin’s soft voice said.

“Oh, well, I’m glad you called.”

There were a few awkward moments of silence, like we’d never talked on the phone before. Eventually, I broke the silence.

“You probably have to go, but good luck.” I said with a smile on my face that he couldn’t see.

“Thanks, I’ll see you soon hopefully.”

We said our goodbyes and I hung up the phone. I was praying that I’d see him soon too, because I couldn’t stand being single anymore.

 

January 29th, 2013

6:00am

 

I woke up ready and energetic. Today was the day that Justin’s album came out, and I was more excited for his then mine at the moment. We hadn’t talked in over a week and we were still in an awkward stage, but this was exciting. I grabbed my phone quickly, clicked iTunes and searched his album. I clicked download without hesitation and waited for each song to download. Once they did, I went to the last three unfamiliar songs. Yellow Raincoat, I Would, and Nothing Like Us. I clicked play andlaid back down, finally hearing him sing to me once again.

I woke up from my nap and was wide awake. I grabbed my phone quickly and clicked iTunes. After waiting forever, (YN)’s album finally came out! I was more excited than anyone I’d known. I clicked download and waited and waited and waited. I knew practically every song on the album except a few. There was one called Stay, Stay, Stay, another It Won’t Stop, and the last one was called 'The Justin Song'. My jaw dropped at seeing my name and I clicked play all. That one was playing last, and I couldn’t wait to hear it.

Nothing Like Us came on after what seemed like forever and I listened carefully. The lyrics hurt me because they were so deep. I started feeling bad and my heart started breaking once again. I could hear the pain in his once again and it killed. I swallowed hard and when the song ended, I cried harder. I decided to drench the pain in alcohol, getting my sorrows out somehow. We always had alcohol somewhere in our house, don’t ask why. But at least it was easy to access.

The Justin Song started playing and I listened carefully, to the lyrics and the tone of her voice. Her voice seemed so fragile and even though it was more of an upbeat song, it was incredible how much emotion was expressed. I hurt inside, and I just wanted her back in my arms. I paced the floors of the jet and prayed that we’d be home sooner than later; so that I could grab her and beg her to come back to me. I wondered what she was doing right now and if she’d heard Nothing Like Us. I prayed once more that she was okay.

I swallowed whatever was contained in the bottle as I fell to the floor in tears. I was a complete mess and I had no idea how else to get my emotions out without slipping into depression again. I tried hard to fight the urge to cry again, but it was so hard. I practically destroyed everything in the house before I finally laid down in our bed and wrapped myself up in a ball. I was delirious and I could tell that I was drunk, but I wasn’t that drunk. I laid in bed for hours, and by the time I got up I was sobering up. I heard the door open and I started breathing hard.

I walked out of our room and ran down the stairs and stopped at the bottom. Justin dropped his bags and we stared into each other’s eyes for a few minutes. I couldn’t stand the distance anymore and I ran towards him. He picked me up off of the ground as he wrapped his arms around me in a strong hold. I sobbed into his shirt and I had to pull away.

“Justin I love you. I’ve never stopped loving you and I never want to. I don’t know what I did to make you want her but I can’t go through that again. I just want you back-“

“(YN) I love you more than you could imagine and it was a mistake. Everything I did or said to make you feel like you weren’t wanted by me was a mistake. I don’t know what I was thinking or doing but I just want you back.”

He held his strong arms around me and squeezed me tight as we stood in the doorway. I cried into his shirt once more before I pulled away and pressed my lips against his.

“I accept your apology.”

Found: 35: Silent & Painful.

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Chapter 35:

December 31st, 2012

11:00pm

 

We sat talking and talking and laughing and flirting. It was fun just to be with him, but it was different. Ugh, this is what I hated, I always compared Harry to Justin and I couldn’t help it. But as I was going to say, it wasn’t the same as it was with Justin. It was so much less affectionate. With Justin I was myself, with Harry I was… someone else.

“What’s that?” Harry asked as he pulled away from tickling my sides.

“What?” I asked.

“That ring. What’s that for?” he pointed to my hand.

I looked down and covered my hand with the other one. I never took off my ring that Justin gave me for Christmas or the necklace for my birthday… They were too special to me.

“It’s nothing, just some little gift.”

“From who?” he asked right away.

“Justin- listen it’s nothing.”

“You still love him don’t you?”

I closed my eyes and avoided the question. I didn’t want to tell him that I loved Justin, because I didn’t want to love Justin. Well I did, but I didn’t. I didn’t know, this was too complicated for me to handle. I nodded slightly and he breathed out.

“I knew it.” he whispered while rubbing his temples.

“I’m sorry.” My voice cracked.

“No, no, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done this with you. I knew it was bad, I shouldn't have taken you away from Justin...”

Harry seemed so apologetic but at the same time i could tell that he was somewhat pissed, unlike he was a week or so ago. Just as I went to hug him, a few seconds of silence came from the TV before music started playing. Justin’s music. We both looked at the TV before making eye contact once more.

“Thank you for doing this Harry. You helped me realize that I can’t move on this easily.”

“Well, I’m glad that your happy.” He said.

“Are you going to be okay?”

He looked at me and smiled, “Yeah, I’ll find someone, but for now, friends?”

I nodded and hugged him. Was it really that easy? Did we just become friends yet again? I felt bright inside, but I had a plan. I wasn’t going back to Justin. I had to discipline myself, and him most of all. I couldn’t just give in easily, if I’d ever give in again.

“So what are you gonna do about you and Justin?” Harry asked.

“Well, I mentally decided that I’m not going back to him. I’ll always love him, but right now I can’t be with him, and I might never be able to.”

He nodded and smiled. We continued to watch his performance and the rest of the show celebrating New Year’s with everyone else. When the countdown came, we did it together with our party hats on and our bottle of wine in hand. Just as the ball dropped, he popped the cork and we celebrated 2013. We laughed and took pictures and danced and just had fun. It was probably the best way to spend the New Year.

It got old after some time and Harry decided to head out. Justin still wasn’t home yet, but I figured he’d gone clubbing with his friends or something to pass the time and rid the pain. That sounded like him, definitely.

“I’ll talk to you soon right?” I asked.

“Hopefully, I have to travel a lot this month. We can talk on the phone?”

“Of course.”

I watched Harry put on his boots and his slim overcoat. I gave him a long hug before he walked towards the door. Just as he reached for the handle, the door swung open, causing him to stumble backwards.

“You bastard!” Justin yelled.

He lunged forward, hitting Harry and causing them to fall to the ground. Harry forced him off eventually and I pulled Justin away from the fight. I pushed him hard into the coat closet door and yelled right in his face.

“What the fuck are you thinking!?” I yelled.

He stared passed me at Harry angrily. I couldn’t smell beer or alcohol on his breath so he wasn’t drunk. I wondered what had gotten into him.

“Harry, I’m so sorry.” I said as I walked back towards him, helping him brush off his coat and pants.

“It’s fine love, I have to go but bye now.”

He shook his head before stepping out of the door and shutting it behind him. I turned back towards Justin and gave him an angry look. He took off his shoes and headed towards the kitchen without a word. I followed behind him, watching him grab a glass of water in the process.

“What has gotten into you Justin?” I asked as I stood in the doorway.

He looked at me with his pissy attitude still present, “What has gotten into you!? You’re already all over another guy and we broke up a week ago!”

“Justin, Harry and I aren’t dating. But seeing you’re interested, do you really wanna know what happened? He asked me why I still where these,” I held up the ring and the necklace, “And you know what I said? Because I still love you, and I always will. But that doesn’t change us, we still aren’t together and won’t ever be. I’m done with you Justin, especially after this. You pushed it too far.”

He paused for a minute, “But I didn’t know I-“

“But nothing Justin. Like I previously said, you ruined everything and I can’t go through that again.”

His pissed look turned to sadness as he finished his water. He brushed passed me out of the kitchen and upstairs. I could hear the frustration in his steps and voice through the walls. I felt bad, but it was really his fault and I couldn’t do anything about his actions.

 

The next morning, I got up early for another photo shoot. Today, I had to do one with a fellow man model. I wasn’t sure how this would be, but I was definitely excited. I brushed my teeth after my shower and did all of the essential things to get ready. I just through on some sweats and a tank to arrive in. When I was making myself toast, Justin came downstairs. I smiled at him and he ignored my attempt to be nice. I shrugged it off and continued making breakfast and the eating followed. Justin ate too and he watched every single one of my moves.

“Where are you headed to this early?” he asked as he sipped his coffee.

“Photo shoot. I think we’re doing a few shots with a male model if I’m not mistaken.”

“Male model?” Justin’s voice cracked.

“I know right?” I said lightheartedly as my face lit up, “This is going to be great.”

I could tell that I was making Justin jealous, which was exactly my plan. I put my plate and cup in the dishwasher before putting on some shoes by the door. Justin followed me everywhere which was kinda starting to get annoying. It was cute thought. Ugh, (YN) stop! You need to stop thinking about him like that. It’s over.

“Listen, (YN), can we talk before you leave? I just wanna work things out.” He begged.

“Work what out? Oh, look at the time, I’m almost late! See you later, okay?”
I ran hurriedly out of the door and into the car that I pulled out of the driveway. Justin watched me leave and I felt proud. I held in my feelings and acted happy in front of him. This was working out way better than I thought it would. I honestly had the hardest time saying that stuff to him but the only thing that mattered was that I did. Now, off to pretending to be happy.

I arrived at my photo shoot and got dressed and got my makeup done and was camera ready. I did a few shots by myself but when the model came in, I felt really uncomfortable. He put his arms around me and we had to laugh and be flirty. It was weird, let me be honest. On the first break, I tried my best to keep my distance from him.

I walked towards the table to great a snack and grabbed a donut seeing it was pretty early in the morning and I hadn’t eaten a huge breakfast. I glanced over and saw the male model, whose name I hadn’t yet known yet, grabbing a snack too.

“Hi, (YN), it’s nice to finally meet you.” He said.

I turned to him and smiled, wiping frosting from my face, “It’s nice to meet you too. And you are…?”

“James.”

James, I liked that name somewhat. I smiled and just as I began walking away, my eyes landed on Justin. I quickly moved back towards James and stood closer to him. He seemed really surprised that I was acting suddenly all flirty with him.

“Just go along with it.” I mumbled, “Oh James! You’re so funny!”

I fake laughed and he actually went along with it. I looked out of the corner of my eye to see Justin walking towards us. James looked really scared and he quickly disappeared as Justin walked up. Justin was intimidating to some, I guess. He looked really hot today too; his hair was a little messy and he had in his earrings with- okay I needed to stop seriously this time. I’m done with him. Jeez.

“What are you doing here?” I asked as I sipped my water and began walking away.

He followed right next to me, “I’m here to pick you up.”

“You’re like, a half an hour early.” I said matter-of-factly.

“I know, but I came to support you and watch. As a f-friend.”

I took a deep breath and smiled before I was ordered back on set. I took a few shots like usual and then we changed the setting and all of that jazz. And then when James came on, I was excited.

“James.” The photographer said.

James began walking towards me, but he stopped. I was confused as to why, but I looked back at the photographer.

“Wait, why don’t you let Justin take this now that he’s here.” She said.

“Am I still getting paid full?” James asked.

“Of course, now bye-bye.”

“James! Wait, what!?” I yelled.

I reached after him, but he was gone faster than ever. Justin stood, scratching the back of his head innocently. I had a feeling that he had something to do with this.

“Why do I have to take pictures with him? The tabloids would go crazy.” I asked as Justin made his way towards me.

“Honey, these don’t have to be sent in to the magazines. Or we can just crop him out, special effects.”

“But then why didn’t-“

“Ah, ah, ah. Now stand there and go like this together.”

She shot a pose and I looked towards Justin. He smiled and held out his hands. I rolled my eyes and let him take the lead and we posed for the pictures. I had to laugh and smile and sometimes act serious with him. It sucked because it wasn’t helping the fact that I was trying to be done with him!

“Can we be done?” I begged.

“All done! You may leave.”

I breathed out in relief and walked off set to grab my clothes that I wore there. Justin followed me like a lost puppy and I honestly wanted him to go away. He was annoying, not cute. Well he was cute, but still!

“Can we talk?” Justin said once again.

“About what?” I asked.

“Us. What’s going on?”

“Well let’s see. You cheated, you lied, and now you want me back. Listen, I’m not going to give in anymore. Even though you’re the most beautiful boy I’ve laid my eyes on, it won’t change a thing. We’re just friends living in the same house, okay?”

He looked down with his hands in his pockets and lead the way out silently. We walked out of the studio together and to the car. The car ride home was not only silent but painful.

Found: 34: Us.

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Chapter 34:

December 26th, 2012

11:30pm

 

“What- What’s going on?” Justin stuttered.

I took a deep breath before looking from Twist to Justin to Atifa who was standing cowardly behind Justin. For some reason, I wasn’t mad at her as much as I should’ve been. I mean, I was pissed and I wanted to jump on top of her and rip her hair out, but still, I thought I'd be more pissed and actually doing that at the moment. Twist was probably more pissed then that at Justin though, so I could see something going down between them.

“We’re leaving.” I said as calmly as possible.

“It’s not what you think-“

“Stop Justin. We all know that that’s a fucking lie.” Twist interrupted him.

“Twist, can we just go?” I asked.

He looked back at me as I waited patiently with my bags in my hands. Tears still pooled up in my eyes, but I tried my best to keep blinking them away. I could tell that Twist really didn't want to see me cry anymore than I already had tonight. 

“(YN), you’re not leaving, are you?” Justin said in a high, scared voice.

I slightly nodded and gulped, trying to make sure I didn’t freak out more than I was inside. I sniffled and made my tears go away, “You- what you did out there… Justin this isn’t the first time. I’m done. If you couldn’t prove yourself the first; or second time, then why should I give you yet another chance?”

He looked really guilty, but his whole look wasn’t working on me. I didn’t feel moved, or bad, or anything. I just felt… sad.

I looked down with my bottom lip quivering and walked towards the doorway. Justin was in my way, along with Atifa, but I pushed passed him, my shoulder brushing his in the process. I could hear Atifa screaming and crying for Twist, but he yelled at her once before following behind me. I glanced back once to see her grabbing his arm and crying, but he brushed her off and followed me.

We walked outside and got into a car we called for and headed to the airport. The car ride was completely silent, and it hurt a lot. We got on the plane soon and we took first class instead of a private jet. It was weird and different than usual… But as long as I wasn’t with Justin I was fine.

“Are you just going to stay at our house with me then?” I asked Twist as I turned to him.

“Actually, I’m going back to my mom’s house for a while. I don’t want to see either of them when they come home.”

I sighed and put in my headphones, not answering back to him. Great, now I had to stay in a house alone… by myself… without Justin. It sucked not having a boyfriend even though we’d only been broken up for a few hours.

I wanted, somewhere deep inside of me, for Justin to disappear and for all of this to be a joke. I had to go back on tour with him in 10 days As far as I'd known and I was not so excited like I should’ve been.

We arrived in LA and I went home alone as planned. When I walked in the door, the house was nice and cold and the TV was on. I was confused as to why it was and I was kind of scared. I walked silently into the living room to see two people sitting on the couch.

“Selena?” I asked oddly.

She stood up immediately when she saw me and ran to me wrapping her arms around me. She looked like a mess too, like she’d just woken up and she rushed over here in a fit.

“I’m sorry about this.” She whispered.

Memories from me and Justin’s relationship flew through my mind and I couldn’t help but cry. I let Sel hold me and I hugged her back while I cried into her shirt. I really just wanted a guy with strong arms to wrap them around me and tell me it was okay, but for now I had to settle for Selena which was fine. I looked over her shoulder to see Zayn, of course. They were always together, which was fine with me. I closed my eyes once more, but when I opened them again, another person was there.

I let go of Sel, “Harry?”

He looked up at me as he handed Zayn water. His eyes looked glistened and the green stood out more than usual. Selena moved out of the way and let Harry do the honors. I barely even comprehended it when I watched him walk over to me. Without touching me, his figure towered over me.

“I hope you don’t mind that I brought them here. I thought Harry would help seeing he and Taylor broke up last month too.”

They did? I didn’t know that. Nobody told me anything because I was totally out of the loop constantly, but that was okay. I stared up into Harry’s eyes and I started to tear up once again. He grabbed me quickly and held his arms around me as I cried into his shirt this time. I was so emotional because Justin and I were officially over; at least that’s what I thought. Harry wiped away my tears and I looked up into his eyes.

“We have to go guys, but Harry, we’ll pick you up later okay?” Selena said.

Harry nodded without words and they both walked passed us and out of the door. We sat down together in silence, the TV now off. We literally hadn’t talked since I said ‘Harry?’. I decided to speak up and maybe say something to break the awkwardness. But what I said was not what I was meaning to say…

“I just hate Justin so much right now and I don’t understand why he would do this to me!” I began, “he betrayed me after everything and I literally did nothing to him. I just want to be with someone, just not him, but I’ve never-“

Harry interrupted me with placing a kiss on my lips. I closed my eyes as an instinct and let him kiss me. It wasn’t as... magical… as me and Justin’s. It felt good though, to have his strong hands cup my cheeks and pull me in and passionately kiss me to make me feel better. I pulled away after a few seconds and looked into his eyes.

“Be with me.” He simply said.

“Harry, I just got out of a relationship. I can’t-“

“But you can. You just don’t want to. Look, you’re scared to be with me because of him, but don’t be. He doesn’t matter anymore and he shouldn’t.”

I felt something in me break, I guess you could say. Justin did matter though. I still loved him… you can’t just not love someone after you already have for so long. I kept my stare into Harry’s eyes and watched his every movement. My breathing slowed down and before I knew it, I kissed him. Maybe it was because I wanted to, or maybe it was because of what he said. He knew that I was vulnerable right now so that’s why he took his chance. That’s why he did it now. I pulled away quick after I realized my actions and looked at his smiling lips. What had I done? As soon as I comprehended the whole situation, I regretted it. What would Justin think? Oh wait, we aren’t dating anymore… but he still mattered, like I said before. I missed him already...

“Harry, I- I-“

I kept stuttering, and I couldn’t get the words out of my mouth. I didn’t know what to say to him; he seemed so satisfied. But I wasn’t…

“You what?” he said in his heavy accent.

“I just wanted to thank you. And y-you’re right about Justin.”

I looked down and away from him. I felt the need to be wanted right now, but I knew that it wasn’t right. Well, Justin did cheat on me, right? So either way, I have some reasons to be doing this, even though it's terribly wrong.

We sat together with small chit chat now and then, but nothing big. Eventually, it started to get late, but I wasn’t exactly sure what was going on.

“Are you heading home?” I asked Harry.

“Yeah, but I’ll be here early tomorrow, is that fine love?” he asked.

“Of course, I’d love to see you again.” I smiled weakly.

I followed him out of the door and hugged him lightly before watching him leave. I wanted to make sure that nobody thought anything of us just in case. You never know who’s watching anymore.

I walked upstairs and sat in bed. I felt so uncomfortable with myself, so… depressed. I didn’t want to fall into a state of depression again, but it was so hard. I never thought that I’d relapse, but who knows.

I felt tears roll down my cheeks but I didn’t even bother wiping them away. I was too sad to even move anymore. I buried my face in my knees and cried until I fell asleep. How can you choose between the guy you thought loved you and the guy who’s in love with you?

 

A few days passed and now it was New Year’s Eve. I anxiously waited for Harry to come over but I knew it’d be a late night. We were just spending the New Year’s here at me and Justin’s house. We’d spent practically every day together since I got back from vacation. We'd gotten close, and I started feeling more comfortable with him. Although, there still was this uneasy feeling around him unlike I had with Justin. Sepaking of that, Justin hadn’t come home once, but he called and texted me constantly every day to check in. I never responded, because obviously I’m pissed, but it was still nice to know that he cared.

Something weird though, was that every time Justin texted me I got butterflies just seeing his name on my phone. It was weird because I was so mad at him! But his texts still made me smile, well besides the ones where he’d say he doesn’t care and then text back seconds later taking every word back. He was so cute… Wait, I need to stop myself before I go any farther and forgive him.

I felt my phone vibrate next to me and I immediately jumped up and ran to the door without checking it. Harry said he’d text when he got here, so that must’ve been him. I flung the door open and the smile disappeared from my face.

“Oh…” I said quietly as I dropped my hands to my sides.

Justin stood outside of the doors with his bags and everything. He smiled weakly and I just shook my head. I walked away from the door and back to the living room where I checked my phone to see the message.

FROM: Harry

Hello love, I’ll be there soon(: See you in a bit.

Oh, great. I should’ve checked my phone first, shouldn’t I have? I clicked the TV on and sat silently. I could hear Justin walk into the room after awhile and I didn’t move to even look.

He took a deep loud breath, “I’m performing tonight.”

I bit my lip as I felt tears well up in my eyes. Performing… I’d missed performing with him so much, it was unbelievable. The moments on stage where we'd get close and he's put his arms around my waist and hold me and sing into the microphone... Those were amazing.

“Good luck.” I simply said, hiding all emotion whatsoever.

He walked over and sat next to me with his fingers intertwined in each other leaning forward on his knees. I kept my eyes glued to the TV for only a few seconds before I had to look over to him. Our eyes connected and my stomach felt giddy.

“Do you have plans? I thought maybe you could come with and we could-“

“Yeah, I’m having a friend over, if you don’t mind.” I interrupted him.

“Oh, Sel?” he asked.

“Harry.”

“Him? Are you guys just friends?” he asked.

I gulped and breathed shakily, “You better get going Justin, you’re gonna miss your rehearsals.”

“Just answer me.” He pleaded.

“Stop, Justin. Don’t do this to me, please. We aren’t dating, me and you, so why should I tell you?”

He backed away slightly and stood up. I shivered just saying that to him because I knew it was risky. I looked up into his eyes yet again and stared, keeping a hold.

“You’re right, we aren’t dating so I- I don’t need to know. I’ll see you later tonight, okay?”

“Mmmm.”

He silently left and just minutes later Harry walked in. He took his sweater off and sat next to me. I could feel pains in my chest and cramps in my stomach as he put his arm around me and kissed my cheek.

“Is something wrong babe?” he asked as he pulled slowly away.

“No, everything’s fine.” I weakly smiled, “I was just thinking about us.”

I'm sorry yet again...

Guys I'm terribly sorry. My computer crashed, along with my wifi. And my phone broke. This week couldn't be any worse and it suckssss. I'm trying my hardest to find a way to get the next chapter I wrote back onto my phone so I could transfer it then, but I'm working on it. I'm not sure how long it could be though... That's the problem. I am going to try to make it as soon as possible for you guys because I know that you've waited FOREVER just for me): and in sorry. I'll keep you guys updated, but until my computer gets fixed, I can't post besides like this(don't even ask it's a complicated situation). But yeah, I'll keep you guys updated, hopefully you understand!

Forgive And Forget

Hey, Beliebers!

I saw that last time not many Imagines were posted, so I decided that I should write one. I have so many ideas but I don't get many comments on my Imagines and than I think that you don't like it so I don't post many Imagines. Please comment my Imagines and tell me what you think and what I can make better. It would be really grat if you tell me what you think about it. If you like it and want it to translate it in another language, just write in a comment and you can translate it. But please tell your readers that this Imagine is form me.

So here it the Imagine. I hope you like it.

PS.: I'm soooooooo sorry that my english is so bad but I try my best to make not many mistakes. I'm really sorry. I hope you forgive me. ;)

 

Justin’s POV

I slowly opened the door. It was 11:30 p.m. and I was sure that (YN) already slept so I was quit. I went in the living room and sow her. She lay peaceful on our couch and slept. She looked like an angel. I went to her to make sure that she slept and she definitely slept. I saw that she had her earphones in her ear. I looked at her iPod and was very surprised by the song what she was listening to again and again. It was “Come Home To Me” by me. I knew that she was very lonely because I was everyday at the studio and at the evening I always was with my boys. I know that I wasn’t at the moment a good boyfriend and I’m really sorry for that because (YN) deserves somebody better but I must work for our future. I took her earphones out, laid her iPod on the couch table and put her up bridestyle. “Justin? Is it you?” I heard (YN) whispering. “Yes, darling. It’s me. Go back to sleep.” Just as I said the last word she wrapped her arms around my neck and holds me tight. I just could smile. When I arrived at our bedroom I softly laid her on the bed and covered up with blankets. She looked like an sleeping angel. I looked a few minutes at her and after that I went in the bathroom to get ready for the bed.

End of Justin’s POV

Next day

I woke up by the sun shining thought the windows. I was still upset because Justin was yesterday again not at home and I was alone like ever. I looked around but I couldn’t find Justin.  I got up and went downstairs in the kitchen and there he was. Justin sat on the table and read the newspaper. “Good morning sunshine. How did you sleep?” he asked me with a smile on his face. “Thanks Justin, I slept very well. But wait no I didn’t. I was alone at home again.” I said a little bit loud. Justin got up and went to me. “(YN) I know and I’m really sorry but please understand me. I want to give you everything you need.” “Justin! Don’t you see what I need? I need you. I need to be near you and not alone at home.” I screamed at him. “Don’t scream at me! I’m sorry okay? I’m really sorry! “ “I just want to be with you and not alone. I don’t know if I can do this any longer.” I said with tears in my eyes. The last part hurt so much but I must say it. Maybe now Justin understands me. “If you think that you should leave me do it. Maybe it’s better. “ he shouted. “Yeah, I think you’re right. I should leave!” I screamed back. I got back upstairs and pack a few things. “(YN) what are you doing?” Justin said calm to me. “Don’t you see it? I pack my 7 things and go.” I took my suitcase and went out of the door. “Don’t leave me, please!” Justin said while taking my hand. I took my hand back. “Bye Justin.” With these words I leaved our house. I got in the car and saw how Justin went upset back in our house and closed the door. Now I sat in the car. Alone! I was so sad. As fast as I could I drove to my best friend (YBF). When I arrived, I got out of the car and rang her door. She opened the door and I immediately fell crying in her arms. “I think we broke up” I said in her shoulder. “What? Why? Before you answer, come in.”I just nodded and walked in her house with my suitcase. We went in the living room and sat on the couch. “What happened (YN)?” (YBF) said to me in worry. Before I answer, I calmed myself down. “Yesterday I was alone, again and Justin came home very late and today in the morning we had a fight and I said I don’t know if I can do this any longer and he said maybe it’s better if I leave and so I did.” Now that I said it all again, I cried more than before. “Honey, everything’s gonna be alright. Believe me. You both belong together.” (YBF) said in a calming voice. “Justin always said to me everything’s gonna be alright.” As I said this, I cried more than before. “*deep breath* okay I think this gets more difficult than I thought.” (YBF) said. She always knew the right words. She always cheers me up and makes me laugh just like Justin. The whole day (YBF) and me just watched movies or talked or did some other girly things. I slept by my best friend. I went very late to bed because I thought about Justin and random thoughts. I was so sad. I missed Justin so much. Even if he wasn’t everyday by me but we saw each other every day and when it was at 12:00 p.m. we always saw each other. In this night it was very cold. Normality when I’m cold, Justin covers me with his body and come closer to me and cuddles with me. But this night was different. I was cold and nobody was by me and could make me stop freezing.

One week later

Justin never called or text me and so I decided to leave California and fly back home to my family and old friends to Austria. I didn’t tell Justin about my planes. I got up very early this morning to leave as soon as I could. I just came to California to live with Justin. I gave up my whole life in Austria just to live with him and now, now all was gone. I didn’t see something that could hold me any longer in Californian. I saw me family and old friends long time ago and I missed them very much but I missed Justin more, more than anything else. (YBF) and I drove to the airport. When we arrived, we went in and waited for my fly to Austria. As I heard that my fly was leaven in one hour I said goodbye to my best friend. “Bye (YN). I’ll miss you so much. Please don’t forget me. “ she said. “Bye (YBF). I’ll miss you too. I’ll never ever forget you. We see each other in a few weeks to get my other things. I’ll call you when I’m in Austria.” I said while hugging her as tight as I can. She nodded and gave me a kiss on my check and so did I. I gave her a kiss on her check back and went away. I didn’t saw back to her because it hurt so much. I got in the flight and fly back home. My thoughts were always by Justin. I still loved him even if he hurt me. When I landed in Austria I called (YBF) that I landed. Soon I was at my family’s house. I went in and greeted all. I missed them so much. After the nice welcome, I went in my old room and lay on my bed. I was so tired. Jet lag. After a few days I felt a little bit better then when I leaved Californian. I called a few times (YBF) and meet up with my old friends.

Justin’s POV

I sat alone and lonely on my couch. I thought about (YN). I didn’t hear something about her more than a week. I missed her so much. I missed her laugh, her smile, her smell, her voice all of her. I never called her because I was so busy.  I got interrupt by rang on my door. I got up and opened the door. I was very confused. In front of me stand (YBF), (YN) best friend. “Hello, nice to see you too.” She said with a sad face. “Sorry. It’s just I wasn’t expecting you at the door.“ I got to her and hugged her. (YBF) wasn’t just (YN)’s best friend she was a good friend of mine too. We went in and sat on my couch. “What’s up? Is (YN) okay?” I asked (YBF). “That’s why I’m here.” I jumped up. “What? Is she okay? What happened? Where is she?”I shouted. “Justin, calm down. She’s okay but she isn’t in Californian. She left a few days ago to go back to Austria. She missed her family and old friends.” “What? Not really or? Please tell me that this is a bad joke!” I said in disbelieve. “I’m sorry Justin. I just thought it would be good that you know.” She said. “Yes, I’m sorry too. Could you please go now? I need some time for myself.” “Sure bye.” (YBF) got up and leaved the house. I couldn’t believe that (YN) just leaved without saying something to me. I missed her so much and maybe now I totally lost her. I regretted everything I said to her when we had our little fight. I regretted that I let her go. I regretted all. I tried to call her a few times but I didn’t get an answer. I needed a good plan to get her back. I missed her and still love her. I love her more than anything else. I had a plan.

End of Justin’s POV

When I woke up the next day, I saw a few missing calls from Justin and one message. I opened the message and saw that it was from Justin. It said:

Hey Honey,

I’m so sorry that I didn’t call or text you earlier

but I was so busy and had no time.

I’m so sorry. I’m really. Yesterday

(YBF) was at my house and told me

That you left and went back to

Austria. I was so sad. I couldn’t

Believe her. I’m so sorry honey.

Please forgive me. I know you

Deserve somebody who has

More time for you. I don’t

Deserve you, I know but

I love you. I love you and

No guye will ever love you

as much as I love you.

I’ll forever love you.

You’re my princess, my love, my

World, my everything. I love you

Forever. No matter what happen,

I’ll always love you.

No matter what happen, you’ll

Always be my number one. I’ll always love you.

Never forget that. If you need me, call me

No matter when! If you need me in the morning

Call me. If you need me in the evening, call me.

If you need me in the night, call me. I’ll always

Be there for you. I’ll always be with you and

You will always be my girl.

Please don’t leave me. I don’t know what I

Should do without you. I love you so much.

Please don’t leave me. It was a mistake to

Let you go. Please don’t leave me.

If you give me a second chance,

Meet me today at the Meer ,

Where we had our fist date in Austria

At 08:00 p.m. If you don’t come, I think this means

That you don’t want to be back with me but I’ll

Always love you and I’ll never give up

On our love. I’ll never give up.

I love you my princess, never forget this ♥

With much love Justin

After I read this message from Justin,  I had tears in my eyes. He was so sweet and cute and all what he could be. I love him so much. I immediatelly called (YBF) and told her that Justin texted me but I didn’t told her what exectly he texted me. I used the whole day to watch TV or read some news on the internet or looked for my outfit for the evening when I meet Justin. When it was 06:00 p.m. I got ready. I took a shower, washed my hair, got dressed, made my hair and took a little make up on. I was wearing this (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=98019266&.locale=de) I wanted to look as perfect as possible. When I was ready I went out of the house and got in my car and drove to the meer where I meet Justin. When I arrived there it was a few minutes after 08:00 p.m. I got as fast as I could on my heels to the place where we first met. And than I saw him. I was just a few steps away from him. With his head down, one rose in his hand and a perfect look he wanted to leave. “Where are you going? I thought we have a date.” I said with a smile on my face. Justin turned around and when he saw me a wide smile grow on his face. The wind was a little bit blowing so my dress and hair flew in the wind. “(YN)? You’re here?” he asked stuttering. I went a few steps closer to Justin. “Justin, your message was the sweetest message I’ve ever got. How could I say no to someone like you? You’re just incredible, pefect, amazing you’re all what a girl could wish for. You’re the best boyfriend ever. I’m so sorry, Justin. I overreacted. I really did and I’m sorry. I made so many mistakes. I shouldn’t have left and shouldn’t...”my sentense was cut up by Justin. He pressed his lips against mine. I missed this feeling so much. I missed his touch. I missed everything about him. “Princess, it wan’t your mistake. It was mine. I shouldn’t be always in the studio. I wasn’t a great boyfriend but I’m really sorry and I promise that if you come back to me, I’ll chance. I’ll be more often by you. I love you so much!” he said with a small smile on his face. “Justin, you should know I would always come back to you. I love you too!” I said. He smiled at me and kissed me passionate. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He spun me around and I laught after I let go of the kiss. When he stopt, I was still in his arms. “I missed this so much. I love you!” I said. “Me too princess, me too. I love you too!” He gave me a last, long and passinate kiss before he put me down. We laid down in the gras and watched the clear and beautiful sky. But after some minutes we laid there looking in each others eyes. We held hands and laid as close as possible.

“I love you my honey, forever!” Justin said with a big smile on his face.

“I love you too, forever!”

The End