Hey guys :)
It's cool to see you expressing your opinions in the comments, keep it going!
And no, I don't know anything about Jelena. I've heard the rumor about them splitting up, but I don't believe anything until it's confirmed. Honestly I think a lot of fans care too much about Justin's love life. Of course it's fair to be interested, but let him have his space please...! As long as Justin's happy, we should be happy too!
One last thing I need to share with you..
2013 is gonna be amazing!! 3 concerts for me:
16/4-13: Olly Murs - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4aQDOUbErNg (Amazing swing really!!)
20/4-13: Justin Bieber - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKryovNmPVg (MY BABYYYYYY)
5/5-13: One Direction - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKryovNmPVg (This makes me cryyyy)
Plus in August I'm moving to America, can this year get any better?
I DON' THINK SO! :D
Anyways.... part 4 is up! Please leave me more than 4 comments, come on!
Part 4:
That was it. All my hair was gone, even my eyelashes. A sob shook my body and I dropped the mirror to the covers on my bed. I couldn't stand the view of my own reflection. The chemo had been going on for almost 3 months now and I was officially bald. Each time after my chemo I would throw up constantly. My body had gotten so thin. I pressed myself further down under the covers. Never wanted I anyone to see me in this state. Everything about me looked horrible. I hated my body. Hated it for doing this to me. But most of all I hated the cancer. I hated it so much that I could feel it in all my veins.
A knock on the door snapped me out. I cleared my throat before answering.
"Who is it?"
"It's me.. Justin"
His voice was muffled by the door but it brought instant tears to my eyes. It had been two weeks since I saw him last. He had to leave to do some work. Last time he saw me I still had my hair. I was still a human, now I was a sufferer. I was nothing anymore. I didn't even recognize myself in the mirror.
"Don't come in"
My voice broke along with the tears streaming from my eyes.
"(YN)? Are you crying?"
The door barked open and I hid my face in the duvet.
"Don't look at me Justin"
My body was shaking with the crying. I could hear his footsteps coming closer. The power had left my body and I couldn't tell him to stay away.
"Baby"
The covers were softly pulled away from my face. Justin's frame hovered over me and I hid my face by turning to face the pillow. His weight made the bed tip slightly when he sat down.
"Don't hide form me beautiful"
His words were loving and careful. A warm hand stroke down my back making me melt in to his touch. Slowly his fingers slipped over my jaw making me turn my face. His expressions were filled with love and not grossed out as I was expecting.
"You're so beautiful, no matter what"
Another tear rolled down my cheek and Justin brushed it away carefully not to hurt my pale and thin skin. He leaned down and a soft kiss was placed on my dry lips.
"I love you no matter what (YN). Don't think this can change my feelings for you. You are so beautiful no matter what. You're the sun in my life and i will stay by your side forever ok?"
He cupped my face with his slender hands forcing my eyes to stay locked with his. I managed to nod at him. He smiled leaning down to kiss me once again. I melted in to his touch letting him feel my sorrow. After a while we both pulled away. He caressed my cheek while looking in to my eyes with a smile
"I missed you baby"
"I missed you too Justin"
For the first time in days a smile found it's way to my lips. Justin suddenly pulled out his phone.
"What are you doing babe?"
My eyebrows wrinkled when he pointed the phone to me.
"Shooting a picture"
I was frightened.
"Please don't"
Justin's hands lowered with the phone. His face was sad and confused
"Why not baby?"
"I look terrible."
My sight went blurry from tears and I turned my face down.A sight escaped Justin's lips
"Don't say that. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen"
I looked up to see a wide smiling Justin.
"You are so beautiful to meeeee"
A warm buzz spread through my body by Justin's deep singing voice.
"I love you"
Justin grinned at my words.
"I love you toooooooooooo"
He dragged out the last words causing us both to dribble over in laughter. After gaining our control I sat up in bed.
"Then take a picture Justin"
His grin was wide as he snapped a quick picture. I watched him as his fingers typed over his phone like a maniac. A sudden buzz from my phone made Justin look at me with a big smirk. My eyes widened in horror
"What have you done?"
I grabbed my phone to see a mention from Justin on twitter. Along with the photo of a hairless me smiling was the caption:
The most beautiful girl in the whole wide world! Never do I want you to feel shame, you're too good to be true! You're strong baby and I love you <3
I looked up with a smile at Justin. He was looking at me in anticipation.
"Come here"
I opened my arms and Justin came running hugging my thin body close.
"You're so thin"
He mumbled down in my neck nuzzling his nose in to my skin. I sighted audible
"I know.."
He pulled a bit away still locking his arm around my body. The pad of his fingers stroke over my collarbones making me shiver. Justin leaned closer his warm breath washing over my neck. Softness pressed on my neck when he gently laid a kiss there.
"I love you baby"
His lips moved on my skin as he spoke.
"I love you too"
I whispered letting my hands run through his already messy hair. His face popped up only inches from mine. A smirk was playing over his lips and I smiled confused. He pucked his lips out expecting me to kiss them. I leaned in giggling and planting a soft kiss to his sweet pink lips.
"Aaahh just what I needed"
He pulled away with a satisfied face. I shook my head still giggling lightly. I moved to the side and Justin got in to join.
"how are you feeling?"
Justin's arms pulled me close to his body. I laid my face to his chest listening carefully to his heartbeat.
"Bad.. I feel like puking, my head is throbbing and my whole body is just feeling kind of numb and weird."
Silence filled the room after I finally told Justin the truth. I felt like utter shit, no other words could explain it. Instead of saying anything Justin started singing softly.
"Across the ocean, across the sea. Starting to forget the way you look at me.."
His voice slowly faded n to the background as I fought to keep my eyes open. Slowly the dropped close leaving me in a world light up by Justin's voice, the only light in the world filled with pain...
"So Mrs. (Your last name), how are you feeling?"
The doctor sat on the chair next to me with a friendly smile. Frustrated I ran a hand through my hair.
"Honestly I feel badder each time I receive the chemo"
The doctor nodded and scribbled down on his paper.
"Well I can tell you that the tests from yesterday shows good news. You only need this last time of chemo to kill the last cells and then you should be cured"
A smile broke my face.
"Really?"
He nodded with a genuine smile
"Really"
"That's amazing, thank you so much Doctor"
"No problem sweetheart. Now is it okay that we start the chemo now? I know it should have been tomorrow but your body is able to do it and it would be great to get it done and over with."
"I'd love that"
He raised from his chair.
"I'm glad to hear that miss. I'll be back in thirty minutes. Call your loved ones and tell them the news. I know it's been long 7 months, but you're almost there now"
With a slight squeeze on my shoulder he assured his words. I leaned back with a happy grin as he left the room. I was cured.. Finally. After such a long fight. Tomorrow... It was so close... I quickly texted my family, friends and Justin, he was at work:
Getting my last chemo in a few and then I'm cured! :D
I smiled waiting for my last step before getting to the end of the stairs, this was the best thing I had experienced for months...
How will the chemo go? Is she gonna be completely fresh? Comment for the last part!!
When you reached a certain point in your life, there are people to there waiting, wanting to see you fall. But rather than let gravity take you down, you have to take matters in your own hands and FLY! -JB
30 Oct 2012
28 Oct 2012
Part 3
Hello guys :)
I don't know if you've seen but Justin has gotten a new tattoo.
It has brought up a lot of drama on twitter... Now I have a little rant here:
It's completely okay to dislike some of Justin's choices, honestly I'm not a fan of tattoos at all and I don't approve of him inking his skin like this. BUT it is HIS life, HIS body, HIS choices! Beliebers have no rights to judge his decisions. We're not robots, we're aloud to have our own meanings, but I thinks it's complete bullshit to stop supporting Justin because of a tattoo. You're a Belieber because of Justin's music and person, not because of his look... or at least I don't hope so..
Maybe the tattoo isn't even real? Only Justin knows. It's completely fair to have your own meaning and don't agree with all Justin's decisions but to stop supporting because of this is ridiculous!
Alright just had to get that off my chest, now here's part 3:
Part 3:
The rest of the day Justin and I just laid snuggled up in bed. We talked about his tour. I helped him record a small message to his fans about what was going on. After he posted it my mentions were floating over with greetings and good lucks. I was overwhelmed and my emotions were out on my skin. I had been crying for so long today, you could say I was in a very fragile state right now.
"Are you ready to go to bed honey?"
I nodded at Justin and he got up from my bed. I slowly sat up yanking my legs over the bed's side.
"Be careful"
Justin held my hand and got me on my feet. The sudden movement made my stomach crumble down in pain. I gasped for air clutching my arms around it bending forward. Justin was quickly by my side holding me up.
"Breath baby.. breath..."
He spoke calmly making me stop shivering. I stood up and he told me to stay for a second. He jogged out on the hallway. I looked at the bare walls trying to keep my breathing steady. Everything here just screamed SICKNESS at my face. The white walls, the smell, the beeping tones from all the machines, all the drops connected to my body.
My focus came back as Justin entered the door with a wheelchair.
"See what I found for you"
His smile was wide and I whispered out a thank you. Standing up had used all my energy and when Justin placed the chair behind me I fell down happily. He unconnected the machines.
"Is that okay?"
I asked him curiously. I knew he had been talking with the nurses and doctors about what to do and not to do.
"We just have to go to the bathroom, so it should be okay."
Justin placed a kiss on my forehead before pushing the chair out of the room. People turned their heads as we strolled down the hallway. We were in the area of cancer but also we were in the building for kids/teens and a lot of them recognized Justin. I looked down at my lap. I hated people looking at me. Their eyes burned in to my cranium like small knifes cutting their way through.
"Here we are"
Justin pushed the door open and rolled me. The room was quiet big and I finally relaxed. I wasn't wearing any make up. Justin helped me brush my teeth and get on the toilet. I asked him to leave while I did my business....
"Are you staying here for the night?"
Justin and I was back at my room. He was just connecting all the machines back in to my body.
"Yeah the nurse said it was okay. I'll go get an extra bed right when I'm done here"
"Can't you sleep beside me?"
I searched for his eyes. They looked into mine with suck passion.
"If you wan to"
I nodded slowly. Justin bend down pressing his lips to mine. It lingered as his fingers traced the outline of my jaw. Slowly I separated our lips letting his tongue dance along with mine. My hands searched desperately for something to hold on to when the kiss deepened. Justin's fingers tangled in my hair and I tugged on his shirt. I tried pulling him closer and he leaned closer down to my body. We broke a part in the need of air. Justin's face was right in front of me, so flawless. I let my index finger run over his perfect cheekbone.
"You're okay tiger?"
I hadn't felt the tears swell in my eyes. I nodded with a slight smile
"I just can't believe you're mine, you're too good Justin"
His lips brushed mine and he spoke with them softly resting on mine.
"We both know you're the one who's too good for me. I am the luckiest guy on earth."
He pulled away leaving a tingling kiss on my cheek. I smiled.
"Why are you even calling me tiger Justin?"
He chuckled and grabbed my small hands in his bigger.
"Cause first of all a tiger is extremely beautiful, it's strong and independent and it fights for it's own course, just like you. You always reminded me of a tiger."
I giggled and he kissed my knuckles before raising. I watched as he slipped of his jeans along with his shoes and socks.
"Don't look"
He whined when he was about to pull of his shirt. I laughed
"Make me"
My eyes glowed with desire. A blush crept over Justin's cheeks and I bit my lip. I watched closely as he slowly pulled the shirt over his head. He stepped closer and I slipped a finger over his marked chest, further down his tones abs, letting it stop at his boxers.
"Get in here"
My voice was deep and hungering for him. I saw him gulp before entering the sheets with me. I cradled him closer to my body.
"Babe you know we can't do anything, the machines will fall out and cut off your medicine."
Justin's voice was shaky. I knew he wanted me badly, but he was still responsible.
"I know Justin, but at least kiss me"
I pouted out my bottom lip. He shook his head with a chuckle.
"You're too cute."
He kissed me long while scooting my body closer to him. We broke apart and I rested my head on his chest.
"Goodnight Justin"
"Goodnight tiger"
I smiled and wrapped up in Justin's strong arms I fell asleep.
"But I know there'd sunshine behind that rain, I know there'd good times behind that pain. Can you tell me how I can make a change?"
I was woken up by the soft words of my boyfriend singing.
"Goodmorning (YN)"
A soft kiss was placed on my forehead. I groaned and moved in to his arms. He laughed calmly making me smile in to his chest. Today was the day, the day I was starting my chemo. I was going to get connected to the chemo for around 3 hours each week for at least 6 months, starting from today. Just then a nurse entered the room. Hey eyes showed no emotions but Justin's did. They were filled with sadness..
"It's time"
Her voice rung out and I closed my eyes, I was going to get well no matter what it took.........
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I don't know if you've seen but Justin has gotten a new tattoo.
It has brought up a lot of drama on twitter... Now I have a little rant here:
It's completely okay to dislike some of Justin's choices, honestly I'm not a fan of tattoos at all and I don't approve of him inking his skin like this. BUT it is HIS life, HIS body, HIS choices! Beliebers have no rights to judge his decisions. We're not robots, we're aloud to have our own meanings, but I thinks it's complete bullshit to stop supporting Justin because of a tattoo. You're a Belieber because of Justin's music and person, not because of his look... or at least I don't hope so..
Maybe the tattoo isn't even real? Only Justin knows. It's completely fair to have your own meaning and don't agree with all Justin's decisions but to stop supporting because of this is ridiculous!
Alright just had to get that off my chest, now here's part 3:
Part 3:
The rest of the day Justin and I just laid snuggled up in bed. We talked about his tour. I helped him record a small message to his fans about what was going on. After he posted it my mentions were floating over with greetings and good lucks. I was overwhelmed and my emotions were out on my skin. I had been crying for so long today, you could say I was in a very fragile state right now.
"Are you ready to go to bed honey?"
I nodded at Justin and he got up from my bed. I slowly sat up yanking my legs over the bed's side.
"Be careful"
Justin held my hand and got me on my feet. The sudden movement made my stomach crumble down in pain. I gasped for air clutching my arms around it bending forward. Justin was quickly by my side holding me up.
"Breath baby.. breath..."
He spoke calmly making me stop shivering. I stood up and he told me to stay for a second. He jogged out on the hallway. I looked at the bare walls trying to keep my breathing steady. Everything here just screamed SICKNESS at my face. The white walls, the smell, the beeping tones from all the machines, all the drops connected to my body.
My focus came back as Justin entered the door with a wheelchair.
"See what I found for you"
His smile was wide and I whispered out a thank you. Standing up had used all my energy and when Justin placed the chair behind me I fell down happily. He unconnected the machines.
"Is that okay?"
I asked him curiously. I knew he had been talking with the nurses and doctors about what to do and not to do.
"We just have to go to the bathroom, so it should be okay."
Justin placed a kiss on my forehead before pushing the chair out of the room. People turned their heads as we strolled down the hallway. We were in the area of cancer but also we were in the building for kids/teens and a lot of them recognized Justin. I looked down at my lap. I hated people looking at me. Their eyes burned in to my cranium like small knifes cutting their way through.
"Here we are"
Justin pushed the door open and rolled me. The room was quiet big and I finally relaxed. I wasn't wearing any make up. Justin helped me brush my teeth and get on the toilet. I asked him to leave while I did my business....
"Are you staying here for the night?"
Justin and I was back at my room. He was just connecting all the machines back in to my body.
"Yeah the nurse said it was okay. I'll go get an extra bed right when I'm done here"
"Can't you sleep beside me?"
I searched for his eyes. They looked into mine with suck passion.
"If you wan to"
I nodded slowly. Justin bend down pressing his lips to mine. It lingered as his fingers traced the outline of my jaw. Slowly I separated our lips letting his tongue dance along with mine. My hands searched desperately for something to hold on to when the kiss deepened. Justin's fingers tangled in my hair and I tugged on his shirt. I tried pulling him closer and he leaned closer down to my body. We broke a part in the need of air. Justin's face was right in front of me, so flawless. I let my index finger run over his perfect cheekbone.
"You're okay tiger?"
I hadn't felt the tears swell in my eyes. I nodded with a slight smile
"I just can't believe you're mine, you're too good Justin"
His lips brushed mine and he spoke with them softly resting on mine.
"We both know you're the one who's too good for me. I am the luckiest guy on earth."
He pulled away leaving a tingling kiss on my cheek. I smiled.
"Why are you even calling me tiger Justin?"
He chuckled and grabbed my small hands in his bigger.
"Cause first of all a tiger is extremely beautiful, it's strong and independent and it fights for it's own course, just like you. You always reminded me of a tiger."
I giggled and he kissed my knuckles before raising. I watched as he slipped of his jeans along with his shoes and socks.
"Don't look"
He whined when he was about to pull of his shirt. I laughed
"Make me"
My eyes glowed with desire. A blush crept over Justin's cheeks and I bit my lip. I watched closely as he slowly pulled the shirt over his head. He stepped closer and I slipped a finger over his marked chest, further down his tones abs, letting it stop at his boxers.
"Get in here"
My voice was deep and hungering for him. I saw him gulp before entering the sheets with me. I cradled him closer to my body.
"Babe you know we can't do anything, the machines will fall out and cut off your medicine."
Justin's voice was shaky. I knew he wanted me badly, but he was still responsible.
"I know Justin, but at least kiss me"
I pouted out my bottom lip. He shook his head with a chuckle.
"You're too cute."
He kissed me long while scooting my body closer to him. We broke apart and I rested my head on his chest.
"Goodnight Justin"
"Goodnight tiger"
I smiled and wrapped up in Justin's strong arms I fell asleep.
"But I know there'd sunshine behind that rain, I know there'd good times behind that pain. Can you tell me how I can make a change?"
I was woken up by the soft words of my boyfriend singing.
"Goodmorning (YN)"
A soft kiss was placed on my forehead. I groaned and moved in to his arms. He laughed calmly making me smile in to his chest. Today was the day, the day I was starting my chemo. I was going to get connected to the chemo for around 3 hours each week for at least 6 months, starting from today. Just then a nurse entered the room. Hey eyes showed no emotions but Justin's did. They were filled with sadness..
"It's time"
Her voice rung out and I closed my eyes, I was going to get well no matter what it took.........
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26 Oct 2012
Part 2
Hello :)
So glad for the great feedback!x
I'm sick at the moment so I'm not really in the mood for writing, sorry that this is rather short.
Here's the next part:
Part 2:
I held Justin close in my arms. My own tears had dried into my skin. I soothed Justin back and forth mumbling in to his soft hair
"Don't cry over me Justin... Please... You're so strong..."
He sniffled in and pulled a bit away. His brown eyes were strung with red lines.
"How can you be so strong (YN)?"
He cupped both my cheeks letting his thumbs stroke the dried tears.
"One of us has to be"
I shrugged and sent him a weak smile. He shook his head with a slight grin.
"You're so amazing. I've never met anyone who is as strong as you. I will be your rock honey, i promise to support you"
I smiled at his caring words letting my eyes melt in to his.
"Sorry for crying baby, i'll be the strong one. You deserve a supporting boyfriend right now"
I smiled
"Don't say sorry. We're in this together"
Justin pressed a lingering kiss to my nose. I giggled lightly squeezing my eyes together. He chuckled before leaning in. His lips captured mine and kissed them sweetly. Automatically I swept my arms around his neck bringing our bodies closer.
"Easy tiger"
Justin chuckled with his lips still pressed to mine. I just smiled and kissed him back. Our lips moved together spreading a warm buzz through my body. His lips were slightly separated and I let my tongue slip over his bottom lip. A shiver shook his body that was close entwined with mine. I knew what I was doing to him and I loved it. I tugged his body closer and let my tongue enter his mouth. My body sighted with desire as his tongue danced with mine. His hands slid from my face to my neck and gliding down my back. He pressed our stomachs together. We broke the kiss resting our foreheads against each other's. His brown eyes shone with so much passion that the air was stuck in my throat.
"You're so beautiful"
The pad of his fingers slid over my cheekbones and I twitched my eyes down. He planted a soft kiss on my forehead before breaking our close embrace.
"Lay down honey"
He pulled the covers to the side so I could lay down. He got down beside me and I made myself comfortable by snuggling up to his body. Justin closed the duvet over us and moved so he could look at me. My face was pressed to his his chest sniffling in the well known scent. His warm hands ran over my back soothing me quietly. I closed my eyes and entangled our legs.
"Are you tired?"
I nodded in to his chest.
"Go to sleep love, I'll still be here when you wake up"
He pressed a kiss to the top of my head.
"I love you Justin"
"I love you too tiger, now go to sleep"
I smiled at the nickname, I never knew why he called me Tiger, I'd have to ask him. But not right now. Right now I just wanted to sleep since I finally felt safe and comfortable at the hospital. I cuddled closer to Justin's chest letting his quiet humming carry me away to sleep.
"But can't you do anything?"
Justin's voice was very fragile. My mind was kind of cozy after the sleep but I was clear enough to understand that Justin was talking with someone else in the room.
"We will of course do anything we can Mr Bieber. It's just very sad that we haven't caught the cancer earlier, it is very aggressive and already very big."
It must be a nurse that answered.
"Would it have done any different is she had come earlier in the run?"
Justin's voice shattered and made my heart break in to pieces, he sounded so sad.
"Let me be honest with you, if she had went to the doctor right when her pain started we could possibly have done more. But remember that there's still hope! We're not giving up on her okay?"
Justin mumbled an answer and I heard the door close behind the leaving nurse. That's when I chose to 'wake up'. I fluttered my eyes open looking up at Justin. He was sitting next to me on the bed. The second I opened my eyes he pulled me up on to his lap.
"How did you sleep gorgeous?"
"Good thanks Justin."
I kissed his cheek before nuzzling my head in to his neck. His fingers ran through my hair untangling the knots. I smiled and let my lips stroke over the veins in his neck. He shivered slightly and my smile grew wider.
"Justin?"
"mm"
He answered with a mumble. I sat up straight in the bed. We both crossed our legs so we sat facing each other. I fixed the lines connected to my body so they were not annoying my sitting position.
"What is it doll?"
Justin tugged a strand of hair behind my ear letting his eyes roam over the drips connected to my body.
"I heard you talk to the nurse before when I was a sleep"
Justin's head shot up to face mine. I wasn't able to read his expression.
"And I know I should have went to the doctor's earlier. So if I die I'm the only one to blame"
The words was finally able to left my mind. It was all my own fault. I knew it..
"If anyone's to blame we blame me okay? I should have seen the signs earlier. I had a feeling something was wrong with you but I was so caught up in my own business that I didn't bother to research further.. I was selfish and now it's karma returning full speed. But (YN), baby, you're not going to die! You are a strong girl and you can kill these bastards inside your body, I know it! and I will be by your side the whole time. I'm not letting you go. Remember what you said earlier? We're in this together right? I love you so so much and I'm not letting you go. You're not getting rid of me this easy"
He grinned while pinching my cheek. I shook my head with a sad smile
"Just don't blame yourself please..."
I looked up in his eyes with begging eyes. Justin took my face in his hands pulling my face closer.
"It's none's fault then. It just happened but we're fighting and we'll get through this. Are you with me?"
I nodded and he returned me with a grin. He lead in and placed a smooth kiss on my lips. I embraced him in a close hug letting the tears run again. How was this ever going to end up good?
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Part 2:
I held Justin close in my arms. My own tears had dried into my skin. I soothed Justin back and forth mumbling in to his soft hair
"Don't cry over me Justin... Please... You're so strong..."
He sniffled in and pulled a bit away. His brown eyes were strung with red lines.
"How can you be so strong (YN)?"
He cupped both my cheeks letting his thumbs stroke the dried tears.
"One of us has to be"
I shrugged and sent him a weak smile. He shook his head with a slight grin.
"You're so amazing. I've never met anyone who is as strong as you. I will be your rock honey, i promise to support you"
I smiled at his caring words letting my eyes melt in to his.
"Sorry for crying baby, i'll be the strong one. You deserve a supporting boyfriend right now"
I smiled
"Don't say sorry. We're in this together"
Justin pressed a lingering kiss to my nose. I giggled lightly squeezing my eyes together. He chuckled before leaning in. His lips captured mine and kissed them sweetly. Automatically I swept my arms around his neck bringing our bodies closer.
"Easy tiger"
Justin chuckled with his lips still pressed to mine. I just smiled and kissed him back. Our lips moved together spreading a warm buzz through my body. His lips were slightly separated and I let my tongue slip over his bottom lip. A shiver shook his body that was close entwined with mine. I knew what I was doing to him and I loved it. I tugged his body closer and let my tongue enter his mouth. My body sighted with desire as his tongue danced with mine. His hands slid from my face to my neck and gliding down my back. He pressed our stomachs together. We broke the kiss resting our foreheads against each other's. His brown eyes shone with so much passion that the air was stuck in my throat.
"You're so beautiful"
The pad of his fingers slid over my cheekbones and I twitched my eyes down. He planted a soft kiss on my forehead before breaking our close embrace.
"Lay down honey"
He pulled the covers to the side so I could lay down. He got down beside me and I made myself comfortable by snuggling up to his body. Justin closed the duvet over us and moved so he could look at me. My face was pressed to his his chest sniffling in the well known scent. His warm hands ran over my back soothing me quietly. I closed my eyes and entangled our legs.
"Are you tired?"
I nodded in to his chest.
"Go to sleep love, I'll still be here when you wake up"
He pressed a kiss to the top of my head.
"I love you Justin"
"I love you too tiger, now go to sleep"
I smiled at the nickname, I never knew why he called me Tiger, I'd have to ask him. But not right now. Right now I just wanted to sleep since I finally felt safe and comfortable at the hospital. I cuddled closer to Justin's chest letting his quiet humming carry me away to sleep.
"But can't you do anything?"
Justin's voice was very fragile. My mind was kind of cozy after the sleep but I was clear enough to understand that Justin was talking with someone else in the room.
"We will of course do anything we can Mr Bieber. It's just very sad that we haven't caught the cancer earlier, it is very aggressive and already very big."
It must be a nurse that answered.
"Would it have done any different is she had come earlier in the run?"
Justin's voice shattered and made my heart break in to pieces, he sounded so sad.
"Let me be honest with you, if she had went to the doctor right when her pain started we could possibly have done more. But remember that there's still hope! We're not giving up on her okay?"
Justin mumbled an answer and I heard the door close behind the leaving nurse. That's when I chose to 'wake up'. I fluttered my eyes open looking up at Justin. He was sitting next to me on the bed. The second I opened my eyes he pulled me up on to his lap.
"How did you sleep gorgeous?"
"Good thanks Justin."
I kissed his cheek before nuzzling my head in to his neck. His fingers ran through my hair untangling the knots. I smiled and let my lips stroke over the veins in his neck. He shivered slightly and my smile grew wider.
"Justin?"
"mm"
He answered with a mumble. I sat up straight in the bed. We both crossed our legs so we sat facing each other. I fixed the lines connected to my body so they were not annoying my sitting position.
"What is it doll?"
Justin tugged a strand of hair behind my ear letting his eyes roam over the drips connected to my body.
"I heard you talk to the nurse before when I was a sleep"
Justin's head shot up to face mine. I wasn't able to read his expression.
"And I know I should have went to the doctor's earlier. So if I die I'm the only one to blame"
The words was finally able to left my mind. It was all my own fault. I knew it..
"If anyone's to blame we blame me okay? I should have seen the signs earlier. I had a feeling something was wrong with you but I was so caught up in my own business that I didn't bother to research further.. I was selfish and now it's karma returning full speed. But (YN), baby, you're not going to die! You are a strong girl and you can kill these bastards inside your body, I know it! and I will be by your side the whole time. I'm not letting you go. Remember what you said earlier? We're in this together right? I love you so so much and I'm not letting you go. You're not getting rid of me this easy"
He grinned while pinching my cheek. I shook my head with a sad smile
"Just don't blame yourself please..."
I looked up in his eyes with begging eyes. Justin took my face in his hands pulling my face closer.
"It's none's fault then. It just happened but we're fighting and we'll get through this. Are you with me?"
I nodded and he returned me with a grin. He lead in and placed a smooth kiss on my lips. I embraced him in a close hug letting the tears run again. How was this ever going to end up good?
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23 Oct 2012
Part 1
Hey guys :)
It's good to see you missed me ;)
Btw i now know where i'm studying next year. A family in Las Vegas Would like to have me!:D
Oh one more thing.. You Can do better than 2 comments.
Here's part 1, PLEASE comment if you want to Read more :)
Part 1:
You and I forever..forever and ever.... The words kept pounding in my head as I turned to look at the clock on my bedside table. 5.15, way too early to get up. With a deep sight I leaned back in the comfortable pillow. That was the only good thing about this place, the pillow. The bed was hard as stone, the walls were so white it hurt my eyes, the food was stinky, the smell here was horrible and the people.. well they were nice, but they kind of made me sick. Sick. Haha funny joke (YN). You're on a hospital and the people make you sick, like you're not already sick. That's why you're here... That's how reality is now. I have cancer.. cancer.. I didn't thought young, healthy people got that stuff? Turned out I was wrong. The cancer was inside me now, fighting to take over my body and make it into a dead one. The tears stung in my eyes and I closed them to keep the tears in. Through the last months I had had a growing pain in my stomach. Yesterday I finally went to the doctor and he send me directly to the hospital. They held me in for 6 hours doing different tests until they told me what it was.. cancer. I had been allowed to go home quickly and pack a bag before returning to the hospital. At 7 I had laid down in this bed and here I had been laying ever since. My parents had been with me the whole time but at 11 they had to go home and get some sleep. I told them I would be fine, but I think they knew I was lying. I'm so scared... Am I going to die? I.. I... A deep sob shook through my body and I hugged my duvet close to my chest. I just wish Justin was here. Justin.. my boyfriend. He was away on tour right now. I miss him so much. Right after he went away the pain started growing, it must be 2 and a half months ago. We talk on skype every night, but I haven't told me. I know he would cancel his tour right away and I can't let him do that. He loves being on tour, that's his whole life. I know I have to tell him, he needs to know that his girlfriend of one and a half year has cancer. Cancer.. I can't believe it. Why me? or actually.. why not me? It could happen to anybody, sadly it happened to me. I just wish Justin was here. I texted him saying I was too tired for our skype date. He told me it was okay, we could just talk tomorrow. Tomorrow. What if I don't make it? of course I make it! I'll take a day at a time and see what happens...
I must have fallen asleep because when I opened my eyes the room was light up by the sun.
"Goodmorning Mrs. (your last name), how did you sleep?"
A nurse entered the room just when I got up in a sitting position. I mumbled an answer. She smiled politely and opened the curtains for the sunshine to get in fully.
"I'll just open the window to get some fresh in here"
I nodded in response. While she opened the windows I grabbed my phone from the bedside table. I had two missed calls from Justin and two messages from him. Also I had tons of messages from friends. My parents had spread the news and the sweet words were flying in. The nurse went out and I started replying the texts, saving Justin's for the last. Finally I read through his messages. The first one said:
It's good to see you missed me ;)
Btw i now know where i'm studying next year. A family in Las Vegas Would like to have me!:D
Oh one more thing.. You Can do better than 2 comments.
Here's part 1, PLEASE comment if you want to Read more :)
Part 1:
You and I forever..forever and ever.... The words kept pounding in my head as I turned to look at the clock on my bedside table. 5.15, way too early to get up. With a deep sight I leaned back in the comfortable pillow. That was the only good thing about this place, the pillow. The bed was hard as stone, the walls were so white it hurt my eyes, the food was stinky, the smell here was horrible and the people.. well they were nice, but they kind of made me sick. Sick. Haha funny joke (YN). You're on a hospital and the people make you sick, like you're not already sick. That's why you're here... That's how reality is now. I have cancer.. cancer.. I didn't thought young, healthy people got that stuff? Turned out I was wrong. The cancer was inside me now, fighting to take over my body and make it into a dead one. The tears stung in my eyes and I closed them to keep the tears in. Through the last months I had had a growing pain in my stomach. Yesterday I finally went to the doctor and he send me directly to the hospital. They held me in for 6 hours doing different tests until they told me what it was.. cancer. I had been allowed to go home quickly and pack a bag before returning to the hospital. At 7 I had laid down in this bed and here I had been laying ever since. My parents had been with me the whole time but at 11 they had to go home and get some sleep. I told them I would be fine, but I think they knew I was lying. I'm so scared... Am I going to die? I.. I... A deep sob shook through my body and I hugged my duvet close to my chest. I just wish Justin was here. Justin.. my boyfriend. He was away on tour right now. I miss him so much. Right after he went away the pain started growing, it must be 2 and a half months ago. We talk on skype every night, but I haven't told me. I know he would cancel his tour right away and I can't let him do that. He loves being on tour, that's his whole life. I know I have to tell him, he needs to know that his girlfriend of one and a half year has cancer. Cancer.. I can't believe it. Why me? or actually.. why not me? It could happen to anybody, sadly it happened to me. I just wish Justin was here. I texted him saying I was too tired for our skype date. He told me it was okay, we could just talk tomorrow. Tomorrow. What if I don't make it? of course I make it! I'll take a day at a time and see what happens...
I must have fallen asleep because when I opened my eyes the room was light up by the sun.
"Goodmorning Mrs. (your last name), how did you sleep?"
A nurse entered the room just when I got up in a sitting position. I mumbled an answer. She smiled politely and opened the curtains for the sunshine to get in fully.
"I'll just open the window to get some fresh in here"
I nodded in response. While she opened the windows I grabbed my phone from the bedside table. I had two missed calls from Justin and two messages from him. Also I had tons of messages from friends. My parents had spread the news and the sweet words were flying in. The nurse went out and I started replying the texts, saving Justin's for the last. Finally I read through his messages. The first one said:
hi babe. Hope you're good. just wanna say that I
miss and love you so much!!!! You need to come visit me real
soon or else I might die........
I shook my head at the word die, or if he knew...... The next one was quiet a different tone:
WHY HAVEN'T YOU TOLD ME YOU FELT SICK!?
i'm coming to you right away!!
How? How did he know.. My parents probably called him. I dialed his number in quickly waiting patiently for him to pick up.
Justin: (YN)! Baby!! How are you? what's going on? why haven't you told me?
His voice was shaky, he had been crying.
(YN): Justin calm down. I'm okay. I'm not dead *yet, I added in my thoughts* it's going to be fine
Justin: why didn't you tell me honey?
He sounded hurt. I crumbled my toes in sorrow
(YN): I didn't want you to worry...
I barely whispered.. He sighted heavily
Justin: stop thinking like that (YN). You know how much I love you, I want you to feel good, not to have aches and be afraid to tell me. Of course I worry about you sweetheart, you're my whole life!
A single tear rolled down my cheek
(YN): Sorry..
Justin: Don't say sorry. There's nothing to apoligize.. I'm on my way to come and support you
(YN): NO!
My sudden outburst took us both off guard.
(YN): you're on tour
Justin: i don't care (YN). I need to be with you when you're sick.
(YN): but your fans babe..
Justin: they will understand that I need to be with my girl when she has... cancer
I heard him gulp when he said it. Cancer. The word held in so much bad that it was breaking my heart to hear him say it.
(YN): I love you Justin.
Justin: I love you too sweetcheeks, now relax.. I'll be there in a few hours to take care of you alright?
(YN): Alright..
Justin: see you soon love
(YN): see you..
I hung up the phone and finally since the diagnose I let the tears fall freely. This couldn't get any worse at all..
"How are you feeling (YN)?"
My mom sat down beside me and grabbed my hand. I sniffled in a sob before shaking my head
"I don't know mom.."
My voice was so breakable. It hurt deep in my throat to speak, I had been crying for at least 2 hours and nothing seemed to be able to stop me. When my mom walked in seconds ago I had finally ran dry for tears.
"(YN)!"
The door swung open and in stormed my boyfriend. His eyes were red and puffy and his hair was a complete mess. His shirt was crumbled and his pants were turned and sitting unstraight.
"Justin.."
My words were barely audible after all the crying.
"My baby..."
His voice cracked and the tears floated over in his eyes. My own eyes got watery as he let a slender finger stroke over my forehead. My mom left the room but I didn't take notice. Justin's tear dropped down on my skin and goosebumps spread over my skin. I must have looked horrible with big machines tied to my body along with probes.
"Don't cry"
My own tears ran down my cheeks as I reached up to touch Justin's cheek. My whole body and voice was so weak. Justin crushed down beside me on the bed. He wrapped his arms around my laying body and I nuzzled my face in to the crook of his neck.
"My baby..."
His words shook along with his body in sobs. I let my own tears fall and slide down Justin's neck wetting his shirt completely. I couldn't take how crushed he was... he was supposed to be my strong, wise, hardworking, unbreakable man... but one thing could break him.. me being dead sick..
That's part 1! want part 2?:D
My mom sat down beside me and grabbed my hand. I sniffled in a sob before shaking my head
"I don't know mom.."
My voice was so breakable. It hurt deep in my throat to speak, I had been crying for at least 2 hours and nothing seemed to be able to stop me. When my mom walked in seconds ago I had finally ran dry for tears.
"(YN)!"
The door swung open and in stormed my boyfriend. His eyes were red and puffy and his hair was a complete mess. His shirt was crumbled and his pants were turned and sitting unstraight.
"Justin.."
My words were barely audible after all the crying.
"My baby..."
His voice cracked and the tears floated over in his eyes. My own eyes got watery as he let a slender finger stroke over my forehead. My mom left the room but I didn't take notice. Justin's tear dropped down on my skin and goosebumps spread over my skin. I must have looked horrible with big machines tied to my body along with probes.
"Don't cry"
My own tears ran down my cheeks as I reached up to touch Justin's cheek. My whole body and voice was so weak. Justin crushed down beside me on the bed. He wrapped his arms around my laying body and I nuzzled my face in to the crook of his neck.
"My baby..."
His words shook along with his body in sobs. I let my own tears fall and slide down Justin's neck wetting his shirt completely. I couldn't take how crushed he was... he was supposed to be my strong, wise, hardworking, unbreakable man... but one thing could break him.. me being dead sick..
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22 Oct 2012
UPDATE
Hello my beautiful fellow Beliebers :)
I am back from vacation and I have missed you all sooooooooooooo much!!!
I have had an amazing trip visiting New York and Washington DC.
We experienced so many things, here's a few:
Walking over Brooklyn bridge.
On Museum of Modern Art, which sucked by the way!
And I met the Biebs ;)
We'd make a cue couple, right?;)
That was just a few shots, we have like 500 pics :P
Anyways,.. you're probably all going to hate me but I am ending Never felt this way before, it's no good, sorry but I hate it... Instead I'm going to write longer stories with maybe 2 or 3 chapters,
Here's a sneak peek from the one I'm working on now:
(it's a phone convo)
(YN): Sorry..
Justin: Don't say sorry. There's nothing to apoligize.. I'm on my way to come and support you
(YN): NO!
My sudden outburst took us both off guard.
(YN): you're on tour
Justin: i don't care (YN). I need to be with you when you're sick.
(YN): but your fans babe..
Justin: they will understand that I need to be with my girl when she has... cancer
I heard him gulp when he said it. Cancer. The word held in so much bad that it was breaking my heart to hear him say it.
(YN): I love you Justin.
What are you guys saying? ready for this story to come out?
10 Oct 2012
Never felt this way before (Chapter 13)
Hello guys :)
This is going to be the last chapter for two weeks since I'm going on a vacation. I'm travelling to NY and Washington tomorrow noon and won't come home before 14 days! I'm so excited :D Anyways I won't be able to post, I hope you understand :)
I love you all so much, you honestly make my everyday by commenting on my stuff! I love you so so much.
I'll update as soon as I get home :)
Now enjoy chapter 13..
This is going to be the last chapter for two weeks since I'm going on a vacation. I'm travelling to NY and Washington tomorrow noon and won't come home before 14 days! I'm so excited :D Anyways I won't be able to post, I hope you understand :)
I love you all so much, you honestly make my everyday by commenting on my stuff! I love you so so much.
I'll update as soon as I get home :)
Now enjoy chapter 13..
CHAPTER 13 OF NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
She chewed her lip nervously.
"Why don't you think so sweetheart?"
I asked her with furrowed brows.
I asked her with furrowed brows.
"It just seems so overwhelming Justin. I really want to get to know you, but it's like you already made us official and we still barely know each other."
My heart sunk, when everything seemed to be fine, it just turned upside down.
"I'm sorry (YN). I don't want to push you in to anything, it's just that if you want my fans to accept you I need to be completely honest and tell them about you. I know it seems tough and I understand if you don't want to do this, it's completely understandable. It would hurt me, really bad, but I get it. My life is crazy, I can't even believe it myself.. I would accept the fact that you wouldn't give us a chance, but on the other hand I know you feel it too. (YN).. you can't deny that there's something special between us. It's like we're meant to be but everything is just against us. I wish it wasn't this hard, but who said that love and life should be simple? I know we barely have gotten to know each other, but that's why we're here right? to talk! and get to know each other!"
I breathed in trying to catch my breath after the long talk. (YN) looked intense at me without a word. She was still chewing on her lip, wow she was gorgeous. Suddenly she sighted heavily.
"Sorry Justin! It's all my fault. I'm probably making a bigger problem out of this than it is, I'm honestly sorry. I'll stop complaining and just see where this lead us.."
Her words made a smile creep over my lips. Her own face broke in to a grin and she leaned over the table. I leaned in as well and she planted a sweet peck on my lips making my heart race. We broke apart leaning back to our sitting positions. The waiter came up to us and handed us the menus. We ordered pretty quickly and the lunch went on peacefully. We both talked like waterfalls, and laughed at each other's lame jokes, it was like magic..
"Are you ready to go?"
I asked (YN) as we had both ended our food. She nodded
"Yeah I'm full"
She sighted heavily and closed her eyes while rubbing her tummy. I laughed slightly motioning for the waiter to come over to our table. He came over with the bill. (YN) reached out for her bag.
"I'll get this (YN), don't worry"
"but.."
I interrupted her.
I interrupted her.
"I wouldn't be a good date if I let the girl pay, would I?"
I sent her a wink and she giggled while a red shatter rode to her cheeks. I paid and we both got up. I held the door open as we exited the small place.
I sent her a wink and she giggled while a red shatter rode to her cheeks. I paid and we both got up. I held the door open as we exited the small place.
"Uhmm.. do you want to go to my place and like.. uhm.. hang out?"
I scratched my neck awkwardly, that was smooth Justin, really smooth...
I scratched my neck awkwardly, that was smooth Justin, really smooth...
"Don't be nervous Bieber, I'd love to"
She kissed my cheek before linking our arms together. We walked down the road pointing out things laughing loudly. It was amazing to just feel normal and free, not caring about papz or anything else. It didn't seem like anybody recognized us, since we made our way back to my place without anybody stopping us.
She kissed my cheek before linking our arms together. We walked down the road pointing out things laughing loudly. It was amazing to just feel normal and free, not caring about papz or anything else. It didn't seem like anybody recognized us, since we made our way back to my place without anybody stopping us.
"Welcome t my mansion"
Her jaw dropped completely as the door opened and we stepped in to the hall
"This is like a whole castle"
"Then you can be the princess"
I answered her cheekily making her blush once more.
"You know you're adorable when you blush?"
She blushed harder fixing her eyes to the ground. I walked up beside her tilting her face up to meet mine. Without hesitation I pressed a soft kiss to her warm lips. With a smile I pulled back looking deep in to her beautiful face.
She blushed harder fixing her eyes to the ground. I walked up beside her tilting her face up to meet mine. Without hesitation I pressed a soft kiss to her warm lips. With a smile I pulled back looking deep in to her beautiful face.
"Where are you staying?"
"Actually I'm staying at the hotel where we met earlier."
We got out of our shoes while she answered.
"Really?"
I asked while leading her in to the living room.
"Yeah. It's quiet nice and expensive, but Scooter is paying."
"He is?"
I plopped down on the couch and she sat cross legged down in front of me.
I plopped down on the couch and she sat cross legged down in front of me.
"Yes, but I hate when people pay for me. I want to show that I can handle myself"
She huffed while shrugging her shoulders clearly frustrated over the hotel choice.
"You could just sleep here if you want? It wouldn't cost anyone anything, plus I have a lot of free space and we would be able to really get to know each other."
I suggested while fiddling my hands in my lap nervously.
"Really?"
I looked at her lighten up eyes with a nod.
"Of course"
"That'd be amazing Justin"
Without warning she threw herself in to my arms. I hugged her tightly to my body feeling my heartbeat speeding up. She sent shivers down my spin with her breath tickling on my neck. She pulled back way too soon making me feel like she took a piece of my body.
"This is going to be so much fun"
She squealed excitedly making me chuckle.
"We're gonna stay up late, watch movies, talk all night and do pranks Justin!"
Her excitement was too adorable and when she started bouncing up and down in her seat I broke down in laughter. It took her a second before she realized her own actions and joining in my laughter. It was sure going to be a lot of fun to live with her for some time..
"Aye (YN) Scooter just dropped off your bags"
I pulled her suitcase after me in to the living room. She was sitting curled up on the couch carefully looking through my photo album from the last tour.
"is this Japan?"
She turned her head to look at me. I walked over and bend over the back of the couch to look over her shoulder.
She turned her head to look at me. I walked over and bend over the back of the couch to look over her shoulder.
"Yup. It's one of the coolest places ever really, you should visit it someday"#
#That'd be amazing"
She answered dreamily turning the next page. I watched the photos with her for a while adding small stories to some of the pictures. After she finished the album she turned to look out the window. The sun had started to set.
"Want to go to the pool?"
I asked.
"You have a pool?"
Her surprise wasn't easy to overlook and I laughed out a yes.
"Come on, I'll show you!"
I grabbed her hand pulling her after me outside.
"This is beautiful"
I held her around her shoulder, agreeing with her words with my silence.
"Wanna go for a swim?"
She nodded walking inside to change. I changed in to my own trunks and sat down on the edge of the pool. My feet tangled in the water's surface and my thought wandered off and about. A presence behind me made me turn my attention. I was completely taken off guard by her stunning out.
She nodded walking inside to change. I changed in to my own trunks and sat down on the edge of the pool. My feet tangled in the water's surface and my thought wandered off and about. A presence behind me made me turn my attention. I was completely taken off guard by her stunning out.
I got up and walked towards her. Her gaze faced the ground and she shuffled on her feet. She was so insecure. I just wanted to hold her and tell her how beautiful she was until she believed me.
"You look amazing (YN)"
I tugged a strand of loose hair behind her ear. She quickly smiled at me before looking over the view.
I tugged a strand of loose hair behind her ear. She quickly smiled at me before looking over the view.
"This is so amazing Justin"
"It is"
I answered as I looked at her. She turned her head at me. Her fingers grazed over my jawline and I shuttered under her touch. What was she doing to me?
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8 Oct 2012
Never felt this way before(Chapter 12)
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We have 'short-movie' theme this week in school so I have NO homework.. YAAAAAY
Thank you for reading!
Chapter 12, wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!
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We have 'short-movie' theme this week in school so I have NO homework.. YAAAAAY
Thank you for reading!
Chapter 12, wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!
Here you go:
CHAPTER 12 OF NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
"Let's take a chance"
Her lips were so close to mine that they brushed them when she whispered. Goosebumps spread over my skin as I nodded. Slowly she fluttered her eyelids close and leaned in to me. I closed my own eyes and captured her lips with mine. A warm sensation spread through me by her lips on mine. I locked my arms close around her waist pulling her into my body. Her arms went around my neck as our kiss deepened. Our lips moved in sync and sent warm chills running up and down my spine. We broke apart both panting for breath.
"I'm so glad you came"
I rested my forehead against her's speaking softly. She smiled and looked at me through her eyelashes.
"You are so beautiful.. to me" (check out the song if you don't know it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZpgY5S3AcSw )
I sang softly making her cheeks turn a deep shade of red. My thumb traveled lingering over her blushing cheeks and she smiled at the ground. I grabbed her chin and tilted her face up to meet mine. Her eyes glanced up in mine. A smile crept over my lips and she matched my toothy grin with her own. Her fingers ran up my neck and curl in to the hair on the back of my neck. I leaned in and planted a kiss on her pink lips. She smiled in to the kiss making my heart speed away.
"Let's go out on a date yeah?"
She nodded approvingly and we separated our close embrace. I entwined our hands and we walked out the door.
"You're happy now?"
Scooter questioned me when we exited the room.
"Yeah, thank you Scooter"
I let go of (YN)'s hand to give him a tight hug. He smiled widely when we pulled away.
"It's good to have you back! Now go out together kids, you deserve it after all you've been through."
"Yeah thanks man"
"Thank you Scooter"
(YN) brought Scooter in for a hug while thanking him. I smile when she also turned and gave Moshe a hug. They both looked like they were taken back by surprise but also they smiled lovingly at her. That was her power. She made everyone like her right away. I guess you could say she's very likable, haha.
"Ready?"
She nodded and reached out for my hand. I grabbed it and we said our goodbyes to the men. We walked down the staircase talking about her trip to here casually. Unfortunately she didn't live in LA, she lived in (Your home city). That would make it quiet hard for us to be together, but whatever. I was going to do everything in my power to make this work.
"Where do you want to go?"
I asked as we walked out from the hotel.
"Can we first of all get something to eat? I'm starving!"
She whined the last part which caused me to chuckle.
"Sure thing sweetheart"
"YAY"
She jumped slightly from excitement and made me laugh. We walked down the path swinging our hands back and forth both giggling like small children. Suddenly I stopped dead in my tacks. Outside on the street it was crowded with papz.
"Shit"
I mumbled under my breath. (YN) stopped too. Her face looked frightened and I pulled her in to my body. She hugged around my torso and I held her tight by her shoulders. They were already snapping pictures of us but I didn't care. I wanted the world to know about (YN) and I, but not if it scared her.
"Are you scared?"
She nodded in to my chest and I squeezed her tighter.
"Either we go out there? or we get back and drive with Moshe and Scooter?"
"Promise me I won't get hurt?"
She looked at me with begging eyes. I pecked the corner of her mouth
"Of course honey."
She smiled brightly
"Then let's go."
We walked to the fence. They started yelling my names throwing questions.
"Guys! GUYS!"
My voice broke through and they all held their words in.
"This is (YN) the girl I've been tweeting about. She agreed to go out on a date with me so I'd really appreciate if you left us alone. Take pictures now and I'll answer a few questions. Deal?"
I looked around. They seemed to be the nice part of the papz. They nodded and I smiled widely. (YN) looked down at the ground shyly, I wouldn't push her to look at them.
"You look beautiful, don't hide"
I whispered in her ear. She smiled but shook her head still facing the ground. A man raised his arm signaling he had a question.
"Yes you with the grey hoodie"
I nodded at him.
"Could you explain this whole situation properly? It's not so easy to understand it all from your tweets"
I looked at (YN) for her approve. She just shrugged.
"Well (YN) and I met on my vacation and got on really well. We wanted to take it slow and get to know each other. Unfortunately there was a lot of hate towards (YN) and it was really hard for her. Also we both just got out of previous relationships. (YN) decided to leave the holiday spot and leave it all behind. I was very sad 'cause of her decision, but I also understood the sudden pressure from the press. Luckily Scooter took the lead and called up (YN). He told her how sad I've been so she agreed to come meet me. We have talked it through and now we're going out on a date"
"Thank you"
The man answered. They were all scribbling down on their papers.
"Any other questions?"
Another man raised his hand and I led him speak.
"Why are you suddenly so open about your love life?"
"Because I want my fans to be happy and I want them to treat (YN) with respect. This is all very new so I won't just spit it all out. But if I want this to work I want my fans to be a part of it so they understand my decisions better"
"Alright."
The pap gave me a smile. I looked down at (YN). Her face was still at the ground. I could feel she was nervous, her grab around me was way too tight.
"Now it'd be nice if you let us alone so we can get to know each other better"
They all took some steps back and let us get through. I held (YN) tight to my body while we walked past the crowded group. I led her down a small alley. I guided her to the more quiet part of town, to get away from all the people. We arrived at a small place.
"Does this look good to you?"
"Yes"
She let go of my torso and we walked in to the little place. We got a table and sat down.
"That was crazy"
She leaned back in her seat.
"Well they were rather nice actually, compared to how they can be"
"Oh"
Her mouth shaped and o. She leaned casually back in her seat. I could sense her mind was wandering around right now so I kept my mouth shut.
"How do you cope with all that?"
I shrugged at her question.
"You get used to it"
"I don't think I'd ever become that.."
Her voice trailed off and she looked deep in to my eyes.
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"I'm so glad you came"
I rested my forehead against her's speaking softly. She smiled and looked at me through her eyelashes.
"You are so beautiful.. to me" (check out the song if you don't know it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZpgY5S3AcSw )
I sang softly making her cheeks turn a deep shade of red. My thumb traveled lingering over her blushing cheeks and she smiled at the ground. I grabbed her chin and tilted her face up to meet mine. Her eyes glanced up in mine. A smile crept over my lips and she matched my toothy grin with her own. Her fingers ran up my neck and curl in to the hair on the back of my neck. I leaned in and planted a kiss on her pink lips. She smiled in to the kiss making my heart speed away.
"Let's go out on a date yeah?"
She nodded approvingly and we separated our close embrace. I entwined our hands and we walked out the door.
"You're happy now?"
Scooter questioned me when we exited the room.
"Yeah, thank you Scooter"
I let go of (YN)'s hand to give him a tight hug. He smiled widely when we pulled away.
"It's good to have you back! Now go out together kids, you deserve it after all you've been through."
"Yeah thanks man"
"Thank you Scooter"
(YN) brought Scooter in for a hug while thanking him. I smile when she also turned and gave Moshe a hug. They both looked like they were taken back by surprise but also they smiled lovingly at her. That was her power. She made everyone like her right away. I guess you could say she's very likable, haha.
"Ready?"
She nodded and reached out for my hand. I grabbed it and we said our goodbyes to the men. We walked down the staircase talking about her trip to here casually. Unfortunately she didn't live in LA, she lived in (Your home city). That would make it quiet hard for us to be together, but whatever. I was going to do everything in my power to make this work.
"Where do you want to go?"
I asked as we walked out from the hotel.
"Can we first of all get something to eat? I'm starving!"
She whined the last part which caused me to chuckle.
"Sure thing sweetheart"
"YAY"
She jumped slightly from excitement and made me laugh. We walked down the path swinging our hands back and forth both giggling like small children. Suddenly I stopped dead in my tacks. Outside on the street it was crowded with papz.
"Shit"
I mumbled under my breath. (YN) stopped too. Her face looked frightened and I pulled her in to my body. She hugged around my torso and I held her tight by her shoulders. They were already snapping pictures of us but I didn't care. I wanted the world to know about (YN) and I, but not if it scared her.
"Are you scared?"
She nodded in to my chest and I squeezed her tighter.
"Either we go out there? or we get back and drive with Moshe and Scooter?"
"Promise me I won't get hurt?"
She looked at me with begging eyes. I pecked the corner of her mouth
"Of course honey."
She smiled brightly
"Then let's go."
We walked to the fence. They started yelling my names throwing questions.
"Guys! GUYS!"
My voice broke through and they all held their words in.
"This is (YN) the girl I've been tweeting about. She agreed to go out on a date with me so I'd really appreciate if you left us alone. Take pictures now and I'll answer a few questions. Deal?"
I looked around. They seemed to be the nice part of the papz. They nodded and I smiled widely. (YN) looked down at the ground shyly, I wouldn't push her to look at them.
"You look beautiful, don't hide"
I whispered in her ear. She smiled but shook her head still facing the ground. A man raised his arm signaling he had a question.
"Yes you with the grey hoodie"
I nodded at him.
"Could you explain this whole situation properly? It's not so easy to understand it all from your tweets"
I looked at (YN) for her approve. She just shrugged.
"Well (YN) and I met on my vacation and got on really well. We wanted to take it slow and get to know each other. Unfortunately there was a lot of hate towards (YN) and it was really hard for her. Also we both just got out of previous relationships. (YN) decided to leave the holiday spot and leave it all behind. I was very sad 'cause of her decision, but I also understood the sudden pressure from the press. Luckily Scooter took the lead and called up (YN). He told her how sad I've been so she agreed to come meet me. We have talked it through and now we're going out on a date"
"Thank you"
The man answered. They were all scribbling down on their papers.
"Any other questions?"
Another man raised his hand and I led him speak.
"Why are you suddenly so open about your love life?"
"Because I want my fans to be happy and I want them to treat (YN) with respect. This is all very new so I won't just spit it all out. But if I want this to work I want my fans to be a part of it so they understand my decisions better"
"Alright."
The pap gave me a smile. I looked down at (YN). Her face was still at the ground. I could feel she was nervous, her grab around me was way too tight.
"Now it'd be nice if you let us alone so we can get to know each other better"
They all took some steps back and let us get through. I held (YN) tight to my body while we walked past the crowded group. I led her down a small alley. I guided her to the more quiet part of town, to get away from all the people. We arrived at a small place.
"Does this look good to you?"
"Yes"
She let go of my torso and we walked in to the little place. We got a table and sat down.
"That was crazy"
She leaned back in her seat.
"Well they were rather nice actually, compared to how they can be"
"Oh"
Her mouth shaped and o. She leaned casually back in her seat. I could sense her mind was wandering around right now so I kept my mouth shut.
"How do you cope with all that?"
I shrugged at her question.
"You get used to it"
"I don't think I'd ever become that.."
Her voice trailed off and she looked deep in to my eyes.
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6 Oct 2012
Never felt this way before (Chapter 11)
Hello :)
Another weekend has arrived, yippie! Friday I went to a party... nothing interesting really happened :P lol
Today I'll have a High School Musical marathon with 5 of my girlfriends :D It's lovely!
Hope you're all doing well. Loved the comment with the teacher, made me crack! ;) haha
Here's the next chapter:
Another weekend has arrived, yippie! Friday I went to a party... nothing interesting really happened :P lol
Today I'll have a High School Musical marathon with 5 of my girlfriends :D It's lovely!
Hope you're all doing well. Loved the comment with the teacher, made me crack! ;) haha
Here's the next chapter:
CHAPTER 11 OF NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
I fastened my seat belt and the van sped off.
"Where are we going?"
My curiosity was taken over my bad mood. Moshe smiled knowingly in the back mirror and Scooter turned in his seat to look at me.
"You'll see!"
A smirk covered his face and I grunted unsatisfied. They both chuckled and drove off in silence. A hundred thoughts wandered through my mind as we drove through the crowded city of LA. We were on our way to center of the city. Soon we arrived at an expensive hotel.
"What are we doing here?"
I stepped out of the car with excitement rushing through my veins. Scooter just walked past me to the entrance.
I stopped for a second to admire the awesome car.
"Come on Justin!"
Moshe pushed me forward to the doors. We went in and I got cooled down by the air condition. The hotel was beautiful with marmot on the floors and high ceilings with big lighting crowns. I followed Scooter up the big staircase with Moshe right beside me. I kept asking what was going on, but none of them gave me a solid answer. We arrived at the first floor where a young man greeted us.
"Hello gentlemen. Your guest is waiting in the third room on the left hand"
He gestured his hand down the hallway.
"Thank you"
Scooter led the way down the hall. We stopped in front of the door.
"Who is it?"
I looked at Scooter and Moshe.
"Open up the door"
I turned the door handle slowly opening up the door. Inside was a bare white room. At the window was a girl. It was..
"(YN)"
I breathed out and she turned around. Her hair was curling perfectly down her shoulders. With a shy hand she stroke her hair behind her ear framing her face perfectly. Her lips were tugged up in a sad smile. Her eyes were dull. I let my eyes run over her perfect body soaking it all in. Was it only a dream?
"Hi Justin"
Her voice sung and I took a step closer. I pushed the door close behind me and closed out Scooter and Moshe's happy smiles. Her face tilted down at the ground. She fiddled her hands around.
"How are you?"
Wow Justin. Well done. Good question. I face-palmed myself mentally. Fortunately she looked up with a smirk and a happy glint in her eyes.
"I've been better. How about yourself?"
"Decent"
I mumbled. Biggest lie ever. I had never felt so much like shit before. I walked over to the window beside her. We stood side by side looking out the window. Neither of us said a thing. Her scent was streaming over me and I gulped. It took all my strength to keep myself from cradling her in to my arms. Suddenly she turned to face me and I was taking off guard when our eyes locked. They were shining like diamonds. Like stars in the skies. Like the sea on a bright day. They were like deep oceans soaking in my soul reading my mind like an open book. I wanted her, oh god I wanted her like she I needed oxygen.
"I'm sorry"
Her words were only a whisper.
"It wasn't fair to just leave you behind like that. I know it was wrong and I'm sorry. It's just.. I'm just a normal girl Justin. I saw all the comments on twitter and they cracked me.. I felt so bad for just leaving you. It was the hardest decision in my life. But I was scared-. When we first met it was like everyone around us disappeared. I was terrified of how you made me feel without even knowing me. I was beyond scared of the feelings that boiled in me. After you left me at my room that night I knew i wanted to take a chance on us. Give us some time and see where it would take us. But then I logged on to the net and saw all those horrible things that was being said. I'm a very insecure girl Justin, I don't feel good about myself in any kind of way and to see those words just showed me that my fears were right. I'm not good enough to be with a guy like you. I can't be with someone that I know deserves better. And I can't be with someone that make me feel like this. I can't describe what it is. But it's such strong feelings that they shouldn't exist in this world. I don't know if you have any idea what I'm talking about but it's scary. It's scary as hell! So I left and I know how cruel it was, and I'm sorry. I went home and relaxed with my family. But it just seemed like I couldn't be happy. You have moved something in me Justin. You have made me believe in love. Then yesterday Scooter called me. I don't know how he got to me, but he did. He told me how bad you were feeling because of how I left you. He also told me to check twitter so I did. I've seen all the amazing things you wrote Justin. I have seen how you treat your fans and how you stood up for me. I can't thank you enough for doing that. It's the most amazing thing anybody has ever done for me. And now I'm talking way too much. I just had to come here and explain it all. You have to know that I feel something for you that is so out of this world and I'm so sorry that I just left you like that..."
She kept our eyes locked the whole time speaking directly from her heart. I didn't know what to say or do. I reached out and took her hands in mine. I let my fingers brush over her palms. She felt it too. The exact same feeling that couldn't be described with words.
"It's okay. I'm just glad you're here now. You should never feel insecure. You know why I've been so sad? Because I feel it too. It's like this feeling that you can't put words on. It makes me want to smile but at the same time yelp out. I don't what it is but you drive me crazy. When I first saw you I was taken back by your gorgeous out but then I got to know you and I stumble over my words to describe how an amazing person you are. I.. I.. please don't ever leave me again"
I spoke softly with the tears brimming in the corner of my eyes. (YN) smiled softly. Slowly she leaned in to our lips were only inches from touching..
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"Hello gentlemen. Your guest is waiting in the third room on the left hand"
He gestured his hand down the hallway.
"Thank you"
Scooter led the way down the hall. We stopped in front of the door.
"Who is it?"
I looked at Scooter and Moshe.
"Open up the door"
I turned the door handle slowly opening up the door. Inside was a bare white room. At the window was a girl. It was..
"(YN)"
I breathed out and she turned around. Her hair was curling perfectly down her shoulders. With a shy hand she stroke her hair behind her ear framing her face perfectly. Her lips were tugged up in a sad smile. Her eyes were dull. I let my eyes run over her perfect body soaking it all in. Was it only a dream?
"Hi Justin"
Her voice sung and I took a step closer. I pushed the door close behind me and closed out Scooter and Moshe's happy smiles. Her face tilted down at the ground. She fiddled her hands around.
"How are you?"
Wow Justin. Well done. Good question. I face-palmed myself mentally. Fortunately she looked up with a smirk and a happy glint in her eyes.
"I've been better. How about yourself?"
"Decent"
I mumbled. Biggest lie ever. I had never felt so much like shit before. I walked over to the window beside her. We stood side by side looking out the window. Neither of us said a thing. Her scent was streaming over me and I gulped. It took all my strength to keep myself from cradling her in to my arms. Suddenly she turned to face me and I was taking off guard when our eyes locked. They were shining like diamonds. Like stars in the skies. Like the sea on a bright day. They were like deep oceans soaking in my soul reading my mind like an open book. I wanted her, oh god I wanted her like she I needed oxygen.
"I'm sorry"
Her words were only a whisper.
"It wasn't fair to just leave you behind like that. I know it was wrong and I'm sorry. It's just.. I'm just a normal girl Justin. I saw all the comments on twitter and they cracked me.. I felt so bad for just leaving you. It was the hardest decision in my life. But I was scared-. When we first met it was like everyone around us disappeared. I was terrified of how you made me feel without even knowing me. I was beyond scared of the feelings that boiled in me. After you left me at my room that night I knew i wanted to take a chance on us. Give us some time and see where it would take us. But then I logged on to the net and saw all those horrible things that was being said. I'm a very insecure girl Justin, I don't feel good about myself in any kind of way and to see those words just showed me that my fears were right. I'm not good enough to be with a guy like you. I can't be with someone that I know deserves better. And I can't be with someone that make me feel like this. I can't describe what it is. But it's such strong feelings that they shouldn't exist in this world. I don't know if you have any idea what I'm talking about but it's scary. It's scary as hell! So I left and I know how cruel it was, and I'm sorry. I went home and relaxed with my family. But it just seemed like I couldn't be happy. You have moved something in me Justin. You have made me believe in love. Then yesterday Scooter called me. I don't know how he got to me, but he did. He told me how bad you were feeling because of how I left you. He also told me to check twitter so I did. I've seen all the amazing things you wrote Justin. I have seen how you treat your fans and how you stood up for me. I can't thank you enough for doing that. It's the most amazing thing anybody has ever done for me. And now I'm talking way too much. I just had to come here and explain it all. You have to know that I feel something for you that is so out of this world and I'm so sorry that I just left you like that..."
She kept our eyes locked the whole time speaking directly from her heart. I didn't know what to say or do. I reached out and took her hands in mine. I let my fingers brush over her palms. She felt it too. The exact same feeling that couldn't be described with words.
"It's okay. I'm just glad you're here now. You should never feel insecure. You know why I've been so sad? Because I feel it too. It's like this feeling that you can't put words on. It makes me want to smile but at the same time yelp out. I don't what it is but you drive me crazy. When I first saw you I was taken back by your gorgeous out but then I got to know you and I stumble over my words to describe how an amazing person you are. I.. I.. please don't ever leave me again"
I spoke softly with the tears brimming in the corner of my eyes. (YN) smiled softly. Slowly she leaned in to our lips were only inches from touching..
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4 Oct 2012
Never felt this way before (Chapter 10)
Hello :)
I love reading your comments! All thought I don't respond or comment on all of them you should know that I read them ALL! I'm glad you guys read my rambling, that's quiet nice to know. When I write all this it's because I have to get it off my chest. Like today we had two tests and I hadn't studied because I haven't had the time.. that was really stupid! I just hope it went okay. We also got a spelling test back and that went VERY well :D So I'm in an alright mood today ;) Haha..
Anyways here's the next chapter:
I love reading your comments! All thought I don't respond or comment on all of them you should know that I read them ALL! I'm glad you guys read my rambling, that's quiet nice to know. When I write all this it's because I have to get it off my chest. Like today we had two tests and I hadn't studied because I haven't had the time.. that was really stupid! I just hope it went okay. We also got a spelling test back and that went VERY well :D So I'm in an alright mood today ;) Haha..
Anyways here's the next chapter:
CHAPTER 10 OF NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
"Justin, sweetie, wake up"
My eyelids shuttered open and I was greeted by my smiling mother.
"Hi mom"
My voice was groggy from my sleep.
"How are you baby?"
She stroke a hand over my cheek lightly. I closed my eyes and sighted. When I went to sleep I had hoped that everything would feel better when I woke up. Sadly the empty hole was still in my stomach.
"Not very well"
I looked in to my mother's loving eyes and tried with a smile. She sent me a reassuring smile before planting a kiss on my forehead.
"Come downstairs when you're ready. I've made us breakfast"
I nodded before she left my room. Heavily I leaned back in my sheets. I grabbed my phone and logged on to twitter.
@justinbieber: morning guys. good to b back home. really need to think some things over
I read some of my mentions and rt'ed a few.
@justinbieber: thank you for always having my back. love you!
@justinbieber: now quality time with mom. just what i need
I logged out and got out from under the covers. I grabbed a pair of grey sweatpants matched with a black tank top. After a quickly turn to the bathroom i jogged downstairs. I was greeted by the warm smell of egg and bacon, my favorite.
"Here you go darling"
My mom served me a fresh plate of breakfast and sat down in front of me. We small talked quietly just letting the chilled atmosphere take over our minds. After we finished our meal we cleaned up together and went to the back yard. The sun was shining brightly and I covered my eyes behind a pair of sunglasses. We both sat down at a table when my mom finally kicked it off..
"Tell me what happened in Italy Justin.."
"Well.."
I sucked in a deep breath before starting my speech.
"When Sel and I went to the pool I saw (YN). She was the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen and I ended up talking to her, jut friendly of course. It turned out she had a boyfriend and I had Selena. After she left I couldn't get her off my mind. Her smile, her voice, her eyes, her laugh, her scent, everything about her kept circling in my head. Then we ran in to her and her boyfriend and ended up talking with them for a long time. She was so easy to talk to and I just felt like we clicked right away. When we separated Sel was kind of mad, and I understood. I had paid all my attention to (YN), but what was I supposed to do? She made my heart race just by being there. That night Sel and i broke it off. It turned out (YN) and her boy had broke it off as well. (YN) was still at the hotel and we started spending time together. We had so much fun mom. We just hit it off like I never have with anybody else before. I felt like I could tell her every piece of my mind without getting judged. She listened to my words carefully and we just laughed so much. I asked her out on a date but she was hesitant, she was not ready. We both just got out of a relationship. We agreed to take it slow. The night went well.. Well we had a little cry-thing, but got over it. That's not important. What's important is that we ended up kissing. It was the most magical moment in my life mom. I can't put words on the feelings that flew through my body. It was perfect, no it was more than perfect! It was extraordinary. I just felt like I finally knew what life was. What love was. We ended the night by promising to hang out again. The next morning she was gone. She only left me text saying that she wasn't ready and to leave her alone."
A single tear rolled down my cheek and I brushed it off. My mom kept silent for a while just looking in my eyes. My thoughts searched out for (YN). Where was she? Why did it end like this? I really wanted to be with her.
"What you have experienced Justin is love. I can see it in your eyes. You barely know the girl but I can see that you really feel drawn to her. Like there is a connection that you just can't explain. I don't know what to do about it. I guess you just have to move on"
"It's not that easy mom!"
I held my face in my hands and rubbed it. It wasn't just that easy...
"I know Justin. I understand you. But take your time ok? She'll be the greatest memory of your life"
She spoke softly but the anger boiled in me
"Memory? MEMORY! SHE CAN'T JUST BE A MEMORY! I NEED TO SEE HER AGAIN MOM. JUST SEE HER... just see her one more time.. the angel.. her.."
My voice shook before I crushed down into loud sobs. I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing her again. It couldn't be true. I wouldn't let it happen. My mom's arms wrapped around me and she let me cry in to her chest. I really needed (YN) in my life..............
Sunday morning I woke up to a loud ring from my phone. I had been home for 5 days now and hadn't been out of my house once. I got Scooter to cancel all my appointments. My life was a mess but I couldn't help myself from sulking down in a hole of tears and sadness. How could a person you only knew for five days make you crumble in this much pain by leaving you? I picked up the phone
"Hello?"
"Justin! Get up! I have a surprise for you. I'll pick you up in 30 mins"
"But Scoo.."
He interrupted me
"No buts! Get your ass up ok? see you in 30!"
Before I could say anymore words he had hung up on me. I sighted heavily, I should probably do as told. I did my routine with fixing my hair and brushing my teeth. I dressed in:
I didn't even bother to eat, I wasn't hungry. I watched some tv until my door was opened by a cheery Scooter and smiling Moshe.
"Come on kid. We have great surprises ahead of us!"
They grabbed my arms and pulled me to the van, what was going on?
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2 Oct 2012
Never felt this way before (chapter 9)
Hi :)
Haha thank you guys for the great response ;) I didn't actually think you read all my rambling here in the beginnings of my posts :P Anyways...
I am keeping the story at Justin's p.o.v., I think that's funnier ;)
and I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOUU!!
Sorry the chapters ain't long, got a busy schedule.
Here's the chapter:
Haha thank you guys for the great response ;) I didn't actually think you read all my rambling here in the beginnings of my posts :P Anyways...
I am keeping the story at Justin's p.o.v., I think that's funnier ;)
and I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOUU!!
Sorry the chapters ain't long, got a busy schedule.
Here's the chapter:
CHAPTER 9 OF NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE
Instant tears welled up in my eyes. Why? Why was she making this so hard? Everything was ready for us. I'd do anything to get to know her and be with her. Together we could conquer the world, raise above our enemies and be the most happy couple the world had ever seen. My heart was shuttering in my chest, it couldn't be true. It had to be a lie! I needed her. Rapidly I blinked the tears away and typed in an answer:
Why? What happened? I won't rush anything, promise!
I dried my sweaty palms on my pants. My lip was hurting caused by me biting my it nervously. The minutes ticked by and I starred intensely on my screen. Nothing.... Another five minutes passed and still nothing. Maybe she wasn't going to answer? I let another 5 minutes pass but when there still wasn't no answer I gave up. She was gone. In 6 days she had walked in my life, changed it completely and walked out again. It was cruel to face the truth, I was never going to see her again. Again the tears came to my eyes and I threw my phone angrily to the bed. I swapped the back of my hand over my eyes making my way to the bathroom. I started packing my belongings while my head spun with confused thoughts. My vision was blurred from the tears, I honestly thought I was going to marry this girl. Crazy, I know! But the first time I saw her, she just touched something in my heart. I can't explain the feelings she gives me, but it's love! That's one thing I know, I love that girl, but I can't tell her, that would sure scare her off. With my toilet articles wrapped up I went back to my room. I looked at the phone on my bed, A TEXT! Like superman I threw myself on it. I picked it up and clicked the open with my heart pounding in my chest. It was from Scooter:
Saw what you did on twitter kid, I'm proud of ya'! Now go get your girl :D
A frown crept over my face matching my glossy eyes. Finally I let a small tear escape my eye. I couldn't do this. I needed (YN). I wanted her! I dialed in Scooter's number with shaking fingers. It only called once before it was picked up: (On the phone)
"Hey Justin"
"Hi.."
My voice trailed off and a sob crushed my body.
"Justin! What's wrong?"
Scooter sounded concerned. Another loud cry left my mouth and I hid my face in my hands while stammering.
"She left Scooter.. she just left.. a text.. she sent a text..."
"What did the text say Justin?"
"That.. that she couldn't do it.. and to leave her alone"
My voice broke and another sob shook my whole body.
"I'm getting you a flight here to LA right away. Get yourself to the airport Justin. Moshe will be there ok?"
I just nodded all though he couldn't see me. I just wanted to go home and cry forever. How could you be so attached to a person you barely knew?
"Can you do this Justin? Or shall I get Moshe to pick you up at the hotel?"
I pulled myself together and whispered out.
I pulled myself together and whispered out.
"I'll get there. How cans he do this to me Scooter? She just broke me without getting to know me at all?"
"Let's talk about this when you get here. Get to the airport ok Biebs?"
"Yes.."
My whole body was numb from the explosive crying. I hung up on Scooter. With heavy moves I packed my last stuff. I got the hotel to get me a cab and went to the airport. When I got there, Moshe was already waiting for me. Before we headed on the plane I wrote out a quick twitter message to my fans:
@justinbieber: thank you for your amazing support but (YN)'s gone.. I can't get to her . now i'll just sleep forever..
I sank the knot forming in my throat. At least my fans still loved me.. We got on the plane and I went to sleep within the first minutes. It was a deep exhausting sleep, trying to get all the crying out of my body.
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"Justin it's time to wake up"
My eyes fluttered open to see Moshe shaking me lightly. I nodded and sat up in my seat. We were just about to land and I tried to make myself look decent before meeting the mob of fans in the airport. I checked my reflection starring at the big bags under my red puffy eyes. A deep sight left my throat, there wasn't much to do about it. The plane landed safely and we got through the security and found our luggage.
"You're alright son?"
I nodded as a respond to Moshe. His eyes showed that he didn't believe me one bit but he let it slip. We went out to the hall and it was mad with papz and fans. I tried a smile but failed miserable. Instead of trying to seem ok I just fixed my eyes at the ground pushing my way through. More security came to help me get out without injury. Everyone was screaming my name, lights were flashing my eyes, it felt horrible. My stomach made a turn and I honestly thought I was going to throw up. Finally we got to the car. I jumped in the backseat. Hiding my face in my hands we drove away from the madness.
"Just lean back Justin, I'm taking you home"
Moshe's relaxed voice made me melt back in my seat. Nothing could cure my heartbreak right now. I just wanted to get home to my cozy house and sprawl out on my bed.
Moshe's relaxed voice made me melt back in my seat. Nothing could cure my heartbreak right now. I just wanted to get home to my cozy house and sprawl out on my bed.
When we got back I went directly to my bed. Not bothering to change from my sweats and hoodie I crawled under the covers. I closed my eyes with a hope that when I woke u everything would be better........
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