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I was waiting for ellen to announced me.

E: This girl is one of the biggest teenage singers and actresses she has almost finished her world tour and has sold over 64.000 copies of her album called ' TOGETHER' please welcome my very beautiful friend (Y/N) (YLN)!

I stepped out and screams filed the room at the back round my song was playing and I hugged Ellen and set down, we waited for the screams turned down witch was after 5 minutes ellen spoke.

E: Hi (Y/N) how are you

(Y/N): I'm great you?

E: Good, so you won a Billboard award yesterday?

(Y/N); Yeah I still can't believe I beat Big shean.

E: Well you sold over 60.000 million copies of your album so...

(Y/N): It's 64.000 actually.

I smiled

E:  Wow that's a lot! So I need to ask what's going on with you and Justin Bieber.

Everyone woho-ed and aw-ed. And I saw a picture of me and him where he was kissing my cheek that was yesterday.

(Y/N): Aw that's a good picture oh wait that was yesterday !

E: Yeah I know it was and don't try to change a subject.

(Y/N): Ow man! So me and Justin, We are very close friends, we are spending a lot of time together and he's like my big brother so... yeah that's it.

E: Ok I think you are hiding something  but I'll let it go. So I have to ask if you're just friends explain this picture to me...  he posted a picture of you on Instagram and It seems like it was taken In your bedroom.. explain that!

Ellen sait like showin off a bit and a picture of me from yesterday.

(Y/N): Well... um... you....see..

Oh my god stop panicking and answer the question.

(Y/N): I went to take a shower in the mean time Justin was snooping around my dressing room and I dared him to find something to wear for me and he found this stuff my friends got me before I was signed and that's about it.

E: Ok but... what was he doing at your house.

(Y/N):  We went to my house after the Boards and we were like having fun I didn't wanna stay in my dress and I changed in what Justin picked out.

E: Justin was seen leaving your place an hour ago but none of your friends were seen.

(Y/N) : Justin fell asleep on my couch and everyone else went home  in the morning at like 1 a.m.

E: Ok so what about your tour.

(Y/N): I still have New York and UK and  here left about 5 concerts. I'm taking a break now and than the rest.

E: Ok so your gonna preform later and your birthday is coming up but Justin's in a month so what will he do? 

(Y/N): I don't know we haven't talked about that but I don't thing he's the kind of person for the big parties.

E: Well you should know he's your boyfriend.

I sighed

(Y/N): He's not my boyfriend 

E: How about valentines day what'll you two do together 

(Y/N): I don't know what he'll do but I'll stay home with friends.

E: Oh okk you two have a good time than. So thank you for coming and se you in a minute.

(Y/N): Thank you for having me.

E: Ok we'll take a break and than (Y/N) will preform her new song.

...-...-....

E: Here is her new album called so far is perfect she has sold over 75 million copies and you're all going home with a CD and please welcome (Y/N) (YLN) with her new single Fix a heart it came out today make sure you buy it on I tunes .Fix a heart

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When I got home Justin was sitting on the couch. He didn't notice me so I walked to his stopped behind  the couch  and I putted my hands on his eyes.

JB: Hm... who is that

(Y/N): I don't know.

JB: Would this person kiss me maybe?

(Y/N): No... 

JB: How about make out with me?

(Y/N): Hm... maybe.

Justin let his head fall back and I leaned down to kiss him. I gave him a peck.

JB: Hey! You said no kiss but make out.

(Y/N): Can I come on the couch?

JB: Well duh!

I walked around the couch and set on Justin's lap and kissed him. This kiss lasted a couple of minutes and than It turned to a make out session. In a couple minutes we pulled away in a need for air. 

JB: Wow 

(Y/N): My words exactly.

JB: I could do it forever if I didn't need this stupid air.

(Y/N): So true

JB: What if we just to this until tonight and Just eat no talking and bathroom if we need it but just kissing and when we need a break a little cuddle.

(Y/N): Fine but why until tonight?

JB: Guess who is coming to your place ?

(Y/N): I don't know but I wanna know this people I don't want strangers in my house you know.

JB: Yeah I know but Ry and Chaz are coming!

(Y/N): Yey! I miss them

JB: We're gonna have flash back hour?

(Y/N): What's that?

JB: They're gonna bring school and kindergarden photos. But they went to school and kg (kindergarden) together so...

(Y/N): Ok I think I have some of that.

JB: Can't wait to look but now less talking more kissing.

And he smiled. He leaned in but I stopped him.

(Y/N): Justin I have to tell you something....

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JB: Cause....

JB: Cause I'm gonna kiss you and than I'm gonna have a little lipstick on my lips and I'm gonna kiss every little inch of your face and you're gonna be red but around your lips is gonna be a big red spot.

(Y/N): Horny much?

I laughed 

JB: You make me feel that way.

I just laughed and looked on stage. Miley walked on stage and said.

MC: Hi everybody!! How is it going here in Vegas? This category is so exciting because you can only be new once, and I'm happy to present this award to some people who are new and talented all of this artist reached number one on billboard chart and earned top five album on Billboard 200.

Big Sean... Foster the people... (Y/N) (YLN)... Scotty Mcrearry.... Wiz Khalifa

JB: You 

(Y/N): Wiz Khalifa

MC: Allright and the Billboard award goes to....

She opened the envelope


MC: ...(Y/N) (YLN)!

My jaw dropped a bit and I stood up I hugged everyone and went on stage I hugged Miley and she handed me my award MY AWARD MY!! -fangirling

(Y/N): Wow... Ok I can't believe I beat all of these guys like Big Sean or Wiz Khalifa I mean come on people...So...am... First I wanna think Scooter than you for finding me signing me screaming at me when I need to be screamed at or sometimes for no reason but  you are the best you look out for me  thank you so so so much for that.. wow I'm shaking.. I wanna think my fans and my Crew , God, my family and friends, my mom I love you so much I wish you would sit there with me for me to hug you I miss you and my uncle when I was little I was always singing and he would tell me to shut up because I would never stop and now he can Just turn off the radio proved you wrong and  again my fans you are the most important thing to me..again thank you so so so so much love you god bless !

 We walked to backstage I took a couple of pictures with my award and than went to my seat.
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So I got home like 20 minutes ago Justin texted me 15 minutes ago not to change haha he's strange but he's cute.

I drenk some water and I heard the bell ring.

I went to answer the door and Justin walked in.

JB: Babyyyyyy!

(Y/N): Jaaaaaaay!

we walked to the living room.

JB: That's all I get?! Just Jay?!

(Y/N): Fine.

I kissed him on the lips very quickly.

(Y/N): Better?

JB: No...

(Y/N): Too bad... See I didn't change and I still have my lipstick on.

JB: I see that... you look so hot

(Y/N): Stop lying

JB: What it's true...

(Y/N): Yeah right... What do you wanna do babe?

JB: This...

Justin said while taking a step further and he did like a step in 5 minutes. I was annoyed now so I stepped a step closer and another until our chest met.

(Y/N): What?

JB: This

Justin leaned down to me and our lips touched and fireworks and everything exploded. This kiss turned in a make out session and Justin picked me up by my waist and my legs wrapped around his waist and he pushed us against the wall and we kept kissing. We looked at each oder cause we were out of breath. I started laughing.

JB: What?

(Y/N): You have lipstick on your lips

JB: I'm a girl 

He said in a girly voice.

(Y/N): Ok I'm not a lesbian so no kissing for you.

JB: Shit !  I'm a man!

He said in a man voice.

(Y/N): Oh ok than...

I kissed him and he kissed back like the same second. We were making out for half an hour.

(Y/N): Did you know you came here at 11 and now its 11.35 and we said hello and had 2 second conversation.

JB: Wow than we have a make out record.

Me and Justin laughed.

(Y/N): So why did I have to stay in this dress?

JB: Your butt looks so good in it and you look hot in it and because I can stare at you and I don't have to worry that cameras will get me.

Justin stared at me and he's mouth open and he was drooling a bit.

(Y/N): Wow do I look that good.

I giggled 

JB:Yeah

(Y/N): Okay? I'm gonna go take a shower. 

JB: What? No!

(Y/N): Why not?

JB: You won't wear that hot dress.

(Y/N): I will wear it on just a boring day maybe

JB: Tomorrow?

(Y/N): No... One day I promise.

JB: Ok but could you wear it when you get out of the shower?

(Y/N): No... But you can come in to my closed and pick out what I should wear when I come from the shower.

JB: Yey! Woohoo!! Aha-aha-aha!

He did a happy dance and shuffled and like jumped around like 5 year old kid on christmas.

JB: Anything really?!

(Y/N): Yeah just not a dress some thing I can sleep in.

JB: Deal!

We went to my closed and I showed him where everything was and I went to take a shower. While I was under the shover I was thinking what Justin picked out for me. I stepped out of the shower wrapped a towel around my body and I went to my bed and saw Justin laying on my bed and he looked at me.

(Y/N): What are you drooling over? 

JB: You.

(Y/N): Okay?... Now stop it's creepy!

I covered myself with the blanked. 

JB: No! 

Justin whined he stood up and took the blanked off of me.

(Y/N): Why not? 

I whined back

JB: You look too hot.

(Y/N): How can I look hot if I'm naked 

JB: What your naked really?

Justin acted dumb.

(Y/N):Yeah really.

JB: I think your lying.

(Y/N): I'm not.

Ok now we both acted dumb.

JB: Let's check.

Justin moved one of his hands to the top of my hand which was at the top of the towel he
gave me an evil smirk. When the towel was just about to reveal my breast i pulled the 
towel up. And giggled.

(Y/N): Nope 

JB: Come on! 

Justin whined again.

(Y/N): What did you pick out for me?

JB: In a second just wait.

(Y/N): What.

Justin was looking at my lips. He leaned in and kissed me I kissed back and this kiss turned in to make out session. We ended up on the bed with Justin on top of me. My hands went around Justin's neck and I played with his hair and his hands went around my waist. He started kissing my neck and I moaned a little he started sucking on it a biting it a little and that caused me to moan louder. His lips met mine again. Justin rolled us over so now I was on top. I kissed his neck and he moaned I kissed his jaw line I went to his neck again I kissed him on a part of his neck that I haven't before and that was his sweet spot and he moaned louder, he started breathing heavy. He rolled us over again and he kissed me and he went to my neck. I moaned a few times and than he found my sweet spot... man!  I gave him a hint to role us over and he got it We made out for 3 more minutes and than I stopped kissing him and I caught my breath. My lips still on his.

(Y/N): What did U pick out for me?

JB: So I found this...
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Beneath Your Beautiful: 36: Christmas Eve.

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Chapter 36:

December 24th, 2012

8:00am

 

“KNOCK-KNOCK! (YN) are you awake-“

My eyes shot over to the door where Pattie barged in. I smiled at her; she had a coffee mug in her hands and she was still dressed in her PJ’s with her hair tied up in a floppy bun. She stared in awe that we were actually up.

“Oh, did I interrupt something?” she asked as she awkwardly looked away.

“No, we were just talking.” Justin laughed.

“Did you guys sleep?”

I shook my head and Pattie rolled her eyes, “You two are crazy. Anyways, I’ll be downstairs.”

I laughed and turned back to look at Justin. We had stayed up all night talking, just talking. We hadn’t even cuddled, we just talked. I thought that maybe Justin would try to put his arm around me at least but, he respected my wishes and didn’t.

“It’s already 8.” Justin looked at his phone in amazement. “We’ve been up talking for like 12 hours.”

I looked into his eyes, “Is that a bad thing?”

“Of course not, I was enjoying it.”

I smiled slightly and laid my head back down on my pillow. I wasn’t tired, I was just thinking. Justin and I had talked about so many random things, none of them being about us. Well that was after we talked about Charlotte and my nightmare. It was nice to just have someone to talk to; not talking about sex or money or love, just life.

I let it soak in that I was in fact friends with Justin again. We were talking and bonding and it was all just so different…

“I think I’m gonna take a quick shower.” I said as I stood up and stretched my arms.

Justin nodded and fiddled around on his phone. Igrabbed a towel from the closet outside of the bathroom and ran a shower. I undressed myself and wrapped up in a towel while I waited for the water to warm up. I was standing by waiting when I heard a knock on the door. I cracked the door open to see Justin, slightly smiling.

“Can I help you?” I giggled.

“Yeah I need my toothbrush.” He smiled.

I opened the door for him and he shut it behind him so that no one else would come in. Although it was a large bathroom, I seemed to end up right next to Justin while he reached for his toothbrush. I wasn’t feeling awkward around him, being in a towel and everything, but it was just the fact that I missed his touch. He always left a tingling sensation every time our skin met and I hadn’t felt it in what seemed like forever.

When he turned to leave after grabbing his necessities, I grabbed his arm and stopped him. His skin was cold, very cold. My hand felt tingly just at the touch.

“You can brush your teeth in here, Justin.”

 

*Justin’s POV*

 

(YN) left the room to take a shower and I couldn’t hide my smile any longer. I was finally talking to her again; we were finally in the same damn room again! God, I missed her so much. But this time, I wasn’t going to be a douche and fuck things up, I was going to make it right.

Last night seemed to fly by, literally. We stayed up all night talking, which was probably my favorite thing to do. We didn’t talk about us or anything like that for that matter, just about life. I loved the way her face lit up when I said something funny, I missed seeing that. I didn’t bother to touch her; I didn’t want to upset her by moving into anything. I was trying to be as cautious as possible to not mess it all up and throw away the biggest part of my life.

“Oh shit.” I said as I shot out of bed. I ran to the bathroom but (YN) had already started her shower. Do I knock? What if she doesn’t want me in there? I just needed to grab my toothbrush, I forgot to before she got in the shower. I sucked it up and knocked on the door. We were dating for 8 and a half months, this shouldn’t be a big deal.

“Can I help you?” She answered the door with a giggle. I saw that she had already undressed and was in a towel.

“Yeah, I need my toothbrush.” I smiled.

She opened the door wider and I walked in, shutting it behind me. She was still waiting for the water to turn hot. Somehow, it seemed like I was following her around the bathroom, but I was trying my best not to. I reached the sink and grabbed my toothbrush, floss, and toothpaste. Before I could reach the door, (YN) grabbed my arm and stopped me. I turned around and looked into her eyes. Her warm touch left a tingling, burning sensation on my skin.

“You can brush your teeth in here, Justin.” She smiled.

I smiled back and set my stuff back on the counter. I could see that this relationship was definitely developing slowly but surely. I was glad, very glad. I stared in the mirror and brushed my teeth as (YN) dropped her towel and stepped in the shower. Damn, I missed that body more than I realized. I hadn’t seen her naked since forever ago. I tried my best not to stare through the glass shower but it was kinda hard not to, I gotta admit that. I continued to brush my teeth and I tried my best to look anywhere but at her.

“Justin, I know you’re trying not to stare at me,” (YN) laughed, “I don’t care.”

Damn, I’d been caught. I spit out the tooth paste and washed out my mouth quickly before heading out of the bathroom. I waved bye to (YN) and went back to her room. Harry was just pulling a shirt over his head. He slept in a different room last night, probably because we were up all night talking. I just waved and gave him a slight smile. Our relationship wasn’t that great at the moment… He didn’t like me very much at all.

“Listen, you and I both know (YN) still loves you so I’m just gonna say this now,” Harry spoke up, “If you break her heart again, I will find you, and I will beat your ass.”

Harry left the room without any further words and I shrugged. I wasn’t afraid of him, but I was afraid of (YN)’s dad, that guy was scary as fuck.

 

*Your POV*

 

I got out of the shower and just threw on a pair of sweatpants and a big t-shirt for now. I went downstairs to find everyone anxiously waiting for me to get there. I guess I was holding everyone back, my bad. We were opening presents tonight with his mom’s side and tomorrow morning with his dad. Two Christmases was going to be fun, I even bought the little ones presents.And of course, I couldn’t resist buying Justin a few things, one of them being pretty big if you ask me. And it wasn’t an object either.

I sat next to Harry and we watched all the kids and everyone else open their presents. I gave Harry his and when he opened it, I was sure that he was surprised.

“I know it’s not much, but I dug this up and I thought that you might like it.” I said as he opened it. By the smile on his face, I could tell that he fell in love with it.

“I-I can’t believe you found this. I love it.”

It was a picture of our mom holding Harry in her arms when he was first born. Seeing he never even knew our mom, let alone meet her, he loved it. I was so happy that he was happy. After a while when everyone was content with their gifts and everything, Pattie approached me and Justin. Justin was sitting on the ground playing with one of his cousins.

“What did you guys get each other?” she asked us.

“We aren’t opening each other’s gifts until tomorrow.” Justin answered.

I smiled and Pattie rolled her eyes and walked away laughing. I loved my second mom, she was the best actually. I got her some jewelry and other little things that she loved too; I guess I was just good at getting people gifts.

Beneath Your Beautiful: 35: Canada Bound.

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Chapter 35:

December 23rd, 2012

4:00pm

 

I stepped off of the airplane bundled up like an Eskimo. Jeez, Canada was colder than I remembered. I pulled my scarf tighter around my neck and hooked arms with Harry. Being on a commercial flight with one of the biggest stars in the biggest boy band in the world wasn’t that great…

The airport was already packed full of girls, screaming and cheering and just simply freaking out, if you could even call it simple. I was oblivious as to how they already knew that we were even coming, but I quickly realized why they were all here. And it wasn’t just for us.

“Justin! Justin over here! Can I an autograph? I love you Justin!”

I covered my face as we were escorted through the crowded airport. Harry kept his head down too, his arm around me and helping me through the people.

“IS THAT HARRY STYLES? IT’S (YN) (YLN) TOO! BROTHER AND SISTER, LOOK OVER HERE GUYS!”

I sighed and we kept making our way through. In the back of my mind, I wondered where Justin was. He had to be somewhere in the airport if the fans were all still here screaming his name. I closed my eyes briefly and it that short time I happened to run right into a hard body. Of course I was the one to fall back on my ass, but he didn’t budge.

“Oh shit,” he said as he turned around and bent down to help me up, “(YN)?”

I uncovered my face to see Kenny holding onto my arm. My face lit up immediately and I wrapped my arms around him as an instinct. It felt like forever since I’d actually seen him.

He pulled away and laughed, “There’s not much time to catch up, we should probably get out of here.”

“We?” I said, grabbing onto Harry once again.

“Well since you’re all going to the same place I figured we can ride toge- let’s just go.”

I followed close behind him with Harry’s arm hooked in mine. I didn’t exactly want to go with him, but I figured it’d be less of a hazard if we took two separate cars. Hell, I didn’t know that Justin was going to be here when we were otherwise I would have scheduled an earlier flight… anything to avoid him.

I still hadn’t talked to Justin since the day after he got wasted. I was sure that he was still doing it- drinking I mean. Of course he was, he chose that over me. It was hard to stop myself from calling him, especially after what happened at my dad’s house.

We got out of the airport and shuffled into the car. I sat down and watched as Harry took a spot next to me. Our bags were all piled in another car and when everything was finally settled, Justin appeared. The door opened yet again and as soon as he stepped in, I saw the emotion drain from his face. I mentioned that I hadn’t seen him since then either, right? Well I hadn’t.

He sat down across from me and I looked away awkwardly. I was praying that he didn’t say anything, but knowing Justin, I knew that he would anyways.

“It’s pretty cold out there.” He said as he rubbed his hands together.

Nobody said a word. I wasn’t sure if anyone was breathing either, it was that silent. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling for answers. I wanted this car ride to be over already and we had to drive 45 minutes.

“Yeah, pretty cold.” I said as I scooted closer to Harry.

 

We arrived at the Bieber Ranch and everyone, well just us three, stumbled out of the car and stretched as we grabbed our bags. I had too many bags and not enough arms so I decided to take more than one trip. I dragged my bag inside with Harry in front of me and Justin tagging along behind. God damn, this was awkward. And I hated to bring Harry into it but he insisted on coming.

“Pattie!” Harry and I said simultaneously as we gave hugs. Justin was the only one to yell mom, of course.

“Oh you guys came together,” Pattie noticed quickly, “I see we’re making progress.” She mumbled as she smiled to herself. We all knew what her plan was and I wasn’t exactly for it at the moment.

“Mom,” Justin mumbled himself, “not right now.”

I bowed my head and laughed. I found my way to our room with directions and Harry led the way. He’d been the most talkative this whole trip. We were so alike, but right now I was being oddly silent. We dropped our bags and Harry left to go meet the family while I stayed behind for a minute. Good thing Harry was outgoing and shit because otherwise he’d be around me constantly. I headed towards the door to go grab my last bag but the door swung open before I could get out.

“Oh, Justin.” I backed away as he set my bags down just inside the door.

“Hi, I uh, just came to bring you your last bag.” He said as he pointed to it.

“Thanks.” I quietly said as I dragged it to the bed.

I was expecting him to leave, well scratch that, no I wasn’t. I had a good feeling that he was going to stay and try to sweet talk me or some shit, I just repeated to myself: Don’t fall for it (YN), not this time.

“Hey, I wanted to tell you something.” Justin said before he turned to leave.

I looked up and stopped unpacking my stuff, “Yeah?”

“I’ve been sober since the 14th, for over a week.” When I didn’t reply, he kept on talking. “Yeah, I realized that alcohol was tearing my life apart so I had to stop. I don’t think I’ll completely quit, yeah I’ll have a few drinks every now and then but not all of the time. I won’t be getting-“

“Justin,” I interrupted him, “I get it. And I’m proud of you, keep it up.”

I gave him a sincere smile and he headed out. Of course, yet again, before he left completely, he spoke up again. “Dinner will be ready soon downstairs.”

I nodded and he finally left. I let out a breath that I’d been holding in for a while. He was so cute; I couldn’t believe he quit drinking. And it was all because of me, which was a good thing this once.

 

“Alright I think I’m going to go to bed.” I said as I stood up from the couch.

“This early?” everyone asked surprised.

We had just finished dinner and I wasn’t tired, but I just couldn’t handle this pain in my chest anymore. It was all too much, for me to be here, with Harry and all. I didn’t understand why this was all so hard on me when I was the one avoiding Justin. It didn’t make sense to me.

“Yeah, I blame jetlag.” I laughed. “But I’ll be up early tomorrow to help cook and everything so don’t worry.”

Everyone said goodnight, including Justin, and I left the room and headed to mine and Harry’s. Harry didn’t even follow me, he was flirting it up with one of Justin’s cousins. I couldn’t hold back my laugh at him; he was always flirting with one girl or another. I didn’t mind, if that’s what he wanted to do than hey, I gotta be there to support him.

I laid down in my bed and cuddled up into a little ball with my phone in my hands. After a while, I got bored on that and just laid with my eyes closed. I was having a hard time sleeping so I grabbed the one thing I knew would somewhat help: a t-shirt. Not just any, Justin’s. itsmelled just like him and when I missed him, I usually used it to calm myself. It oddly helped on a lot of different occasions.

I closed my eyes once again and drifted into a deep, calming sleep. So I thought.

I woke up and Harry was sound asleep in the bed right next to me. I rubbed my tired eyes and got out of bed. This had been bugging me all night and now I had to get it over with. I had to talk to Justin.

I searched around the house with only the light from my phone illuminating everything in sight. I finally found my way to Justin’s room and quietly opened the door. To my surprise, Justin was wide awake himself. He looked up from his notebook and stared at me with no expression. I moved towards him and held out my hand. As soon as I began talking, I was interrupted by a loud cry. My attention shot over to a small basinet rocking gently in the corner of the room. Charlotte. But how?

I ran towards the basinet but when I got there, there was nothing. It just rocked back and forth by itself. I turned around and Justin appeared just inches away from me now, standing. I breathed heavily and felt a tension as a tear fell from his eye.

“Where’s Charlie?” I spoke out in a saddened tone.

He stood there with tears rolling down his face, unable to move. I tried to get his attention and when I did he became angered and stepped closer to me. I was eventually stopped when my back hit the wall harshly. Justin pushed me up against the wall, breathing down on me.

“You killed her. Y-You killed our baby.” Justin whispered as more tears fell down onto my shirt.

“What?” I started tearing up.

“You did this!” Justin screamed at me. “You took her away from me! It’s all your fault!”

“But I didn’t-“

“Just shut-up! Stop talking!”

I shakily tried moving away from Justin but I was restricted between him and the wall. It’s your fault. It’s your fault. The words stuck in my head like glue. I fell to the ground and wrapped my arms around my knees. It was my fault. It was my entire fault. I covered my ears to block out the voices, telling me that I had killed my daughter. I rocked back and forth with tears streaming down my face and all I could do was scream.

My eyes shot open. My chest burned and my face was damp with tears. It was all a dream. It was all a dream. Justin was standing over me, violently shaking my shoulders. I could see his lips moving but I couldn’t hear anything for a few seconds. I breathed in sharply and my hearing came back.

“(YN)! Are you okay?” Justin held my shoulders as I sat up.

I looked into his tired eyes and all I saw was regret. I parted my lips to speak but nothing came of it. I felt warmness down my face once again and before I could even wipe away the tears I wrapped my arms around Justin’s neck and held him tightly to me. His reaction was late, but he soon put his arms around me and embraced me like he’d always done in the past.

I pulled away minutes later and he wiped my tears with his thumbs. My tears dried up and now my eyes were just puffy. Justin still sat on the bed beside me, staying silent.

“Were you having a nightmare?” Justin asked quietly. I nodded and he blinked a few times and rubbed his tired eyes. “I could tell. I came in here because I heard you talking and you were tossing and turning and then you started screaming- I was scared.”

I swallowed hard and looked down. I wanted badly to tell him all about my dream but I didn’t bother, it was no use anyways. I stayed silent while he gently rubbed my thigh, calming me down. After about 15-20 minutes, he stood up and headed towards the door. I begged with my eyes for him to come back, but there was no way when I could barely make out any words.

“Justin,” I stopped him. He turned around right away and waited for me to speak again. “Do you, do you think it’s my fault that C-Charlotte d-died.” My voice cracked.

Justin’s jaw tensed and he unclenched his fists. “Not at all, why would you think that?”

“I just- I thought-“ I couldn’t even come up with any words to explain it. It was hard enough talking about Charlotte, especially to Justin.

He came back to my bed and walked around, sitting down leaning against the headboard and turning his head towards me. I didn’t even move a bit when he leaned in and kissed my forehead, I just let him. “I would never, ever blame you for that.”