New Beginnings. Chapter 6: Does He Even Understand Me?

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I grabbed a blanket and Justin helped me drag a mattress into my room. I made him a little bed, right next to mine and after he changed into some of my brother's clothes, we both laid down.

It was completely quiet, there was nothing to say. My ceiling glowed down on both of us, lighting up our faces dimly.

SUNDAY, OCTOBER 7TH, 2012

I woke up feeling refreshed and ready for the day. As I sat up in bed, I could feel the soreness all over my body. I ached, BADLY. I groaned a bit as I slipped my feet from under the covers and placed them on the cold wooden floor. I looked to my left to see Justin still sleeping, soundly like an angel. I just smiled and headed to the bathroom.

After brushing my teeth and washing my face, I went back in my room and Justin was still sleeping. I just shook my head and headed downstairs, closing my door behind me. I saw my mom sitting on the couch, curled up in a ball with her bathrobe on and her hair up. She had her coffee cup held up to her face as she turned to me and slightly smiled. I sat down next to her and laid my head on her legs.

"I suppose you want to talk to me." I said quietly as I stared off into the distance.

"Yeah," she sighed, "I'm just worried. I don't want this happening again. You almost got us all killed and I can't do that again."

"Mom, it was just a dumb mistake. I'm definitely not going to do it again, I think I've learned my lesson." I said as I sat up and looked at her.

I stared into her eyes. We were practically identically; especially right now. Our hair a mess, our droopy eyes, and neither of us were happy.

"I'm sending you to a private school."

I tilted my head and laughed a bit. She couldn't be serious: a PRIVATE school? What the hell was that going to do?

"Funny one mom, but seriously."

"I'm being serious (YN), this will help you focus on your grades and trust me; it'll help in the long run. You'll live with you're cousins, a few hours away, for the rest of your senior year."

"I'm not going to a private school, and I'm definitely not moving away."

"Yes you are, y-you don't have a choice anymore." she said, her voice stern as she set her cup down.

"How could you do this to me?" I said with tears in my eyes.

My mom reached out her hand to grab me, but I pulled away and stood up. I didn't even want to look at her anymore. She was making me give up everything for this; this one incident. I knew that it was a huge incident too, but school wasn't even in the situation.

"I think I can help." I heard a distant voice say.

Justin. Of course, he would try to get into this conversation. How could he help? I was just pissed and I didn't want to hear what he had to say either. I folded my arms as Justin stood in the wooden doorway and my mom sat on the couch.

"Justin this is not the right time-" I began.

"No let him talk. Maybe he can get you to cooperate." my mom said in a snotty voice.

I just glared at her before turning my attention back to Justin. What could he possibly say to make this conversation any better, like seriously?

"Well just throwing ideas out there. Mrs. (YLN), I know how you want your daughter to be safe-"

He paused and my mom nodded. I sighed and sat down on the opposite end of the couch from my mom. Justin came farther into the room, still talking about his great 'plan'. He looked from me to my mom then back to me.

"And (YN), I can tell how you really don't want to go to a private school-"

"Talk about it." I mumbled.

"Anyways," he continued, "one of my parents' good friends is a tutor, they tutored me while i was on tour and still in school. If (YN) came with me; I could get her proper schooling and she could finish out her senior year with me. She'd be away from this town, like you want, and she'd still be learning."

What? Did I hear that correctly? My lips slightly parted and I unfolded my arms. Go with him? On tour? Travelling? I mean it all sounded so much fun and all- but leave my friends and family behind just for school? But I wasn't worrying much in my mind, of course my mom wouldn't let me do something drastic like this. Private school was only a few hours away, I could still visit. But with Justin, there's no way...

"Justin, that's an amazing idea." my mom said as she stood up and wrapped her arms around him.

I stood up too and threw my arms up in the air.

"What?!" I said in awe.

She let go of him and turned to me, brushing her robe down. Justin slightly smiled at me from behind my mom, but I was NOT happy. How could he be smiling in a time like this?!

"Honey, this is a great idea. It'll keep you out of trouble and you'll get your homework done."

"Mom, I'm 17, turning 18 in January! I can take care of myself. I already get my homework done and I-I can keep my self safe."

They both stared at me. My mom folded her arms across her chest and leaned on one hip. Wow, they- well she, didn't trust me. My own mother, didn't even trust me enough to stay in the same town. She was making me leave my friends, my family, everything I had here.

I felt tears coming to my eyes and I pushed both of them out of the way and ran upstairs. My mom didn't budge but Justin yelled after me. I slammed my door behind me and ran to my bed, burying my face in my pillow and letting myself go. Can she do this? Can she just hand me off to a complete stranger like I'm a fucking dog or something?

"(YN)…"

I heard a light knock on the door and I knew that it was Justin. I didn't answer, just wiped away my tears and turned on my side. I laid my head back down on the pillow and turned my head away from the door, to my left. I realized that my doors to my little outside porch were open and I quickly stood and walked over to them. Instead of shutting them, I walked outside in the morning breeze and stood there, trying to catch my breath and think. The wind whipped my hair out of my ponytail and I just let it. I closed my eyes and stared out at the vast field before me. I could hear birds chirping, the wind through the trees; and I could smell the fresh cut grass.

Behind me, I heard the doors open and I could feel the presence of another. I kept me eyes closed and placed my palms on the ledge, leaning against it for support. Without opening my eyes, I could tell that Justin stood next to me being silent. We stood in silence for a few minutes.

"Ya know, all I wanted was for this to be over. For me to be sitting in my room with my friends, talking about boys and shopping. To sit in a regular classroom, staring at the clock waiting for that last bell to ring. And now it's all being taken away from me, just like that." I said.

I felt Justin's hand brush over mine and I opened my eyes and turned to him. He looked in my teary eyes and stayed silent. As much as I wanted to stay with Justin, I didn't want to go with him. I wanted him to leave and go back on tour and for us to talk once in awhile. Not for me to go on tour with him. It was like a love hate relationship I had with him, at least for me.

"It's not so bad-"

"How can you even say that? I'm being forced to leave my family and friends! How is that not bad? You can just have them fly out to you, I can't. That's what you don't understand, this isn't just a joyride for me." I yelled back.

I felt a bit bad for yelling at him, but I was more than pissed now. He's the famous one... he can have anything he want anytime he want. I can't. I don't think he understood anything I said...

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-Ana.

The Greatest Birthday - 24

Some hours back my friend was telling me that he has a feeling that Justin likes me. 

And now, he was standing just an inch away from me, and really was telling me that he is in love..with me. I was wordless. We stood there in silence, as he deeply looked into my eyes, expecting an answer. What was I supposed to say? I've never liked anybody the way I felt that I liked him. 

A moment went by. 

"Justin, I..." My mouth went dry. He waved his hand in the air. "No, no. You don't have to say anything, nothing. I just told you what I felt. If you don't I'm fine with it I--" he said everything in a hurry, before I cut him off. "I feel the same." He continued intensely, so I don't think he could understand me. "Wait, what?" His eyes widened. "I love you!" I did it. This time he was wordless. Where did these feelings come from? It was just something that automatically came out of me, maybe I wanted to say it all along. 

"You made this the best day ever." He openly smiled. "So did you buddy." He pointed on his back, asking me to climb on. My ride back to the hotel was super luxurious. Until, when we reached the entrance.. Flashing cameras everywhere, reports screaming in our ears. I though he'd ask me to get down on my feet and run inside, but oh no he didn't. Justin simply posed for the cameras and waved at everybody with me calmly laying on his back. This boy.. We went upstairs, and the walk to the room seemed a bit awkward. 

He put his hands inside his pockets and I crossed my arms around my chest. "I'll meet you before I leave in the morning." He said, when I unlocked my room's door and he did his. "You better." I walked in. I was wide awake and pretty sure I wouldn't be able I sleep all night. I changed into my pyjamas(that had bunnies and hearts on them) and walked to the room adjacent to mine. Silly guy, he left his door open. I slowly tip-toed into it. Little Bieber was lying on the bed, inside the duvet in his deep thoughts. "I can't sleep." I cried. "Come here." The Lord commanded with a smirk. I went and stood near the bed. "You mind sharing the bed with me tonight?" He asked. I thought we were just going to watch TV together or maybe creep on the Internet.. Seems like stuff changed. "No?" I got inside, without his telling. 

Oh

Crap. 

He wasn't just lying there. He was lying there. But he was lying there shirtless. He was lying there in his sweatpants. He was lying there with his Calvin Klein boxers peeking out of sweats. He was lying there half naked. He pulled me closer, close enough to actually be literally stuck to his body. 

It felt like heaven. 

*shivers*

"You can sleep tight now." He winked. "What is wrong with you.." I'm a bit worried about his mental health at this point of time. "Will you be my girlfriend?" Cassie, wherever you are, I love you. 

"Remember when you said you're not romantic? You are romantic. What better place could this question be asked in." He chuckled and then said, "I'm serious, just say yes or no. You'll have to sleep next to me either ways so you don't really have a choice." 

Thinking. Thinking. Thinking. 

Why am I thinking? I know everything happened suddenly. But to be completely honest, I did sort of feel this way before. Whenever he was with me, I felt like I just wanted to stare at him all day. "Yes I will." He dived in closer, oh my, kiss, kiss, kiss, is he seriously going to, WAIT.

He kissed me on the cheek. Well enough. It was still delightful. 

I wouldn't say we slept a lot. We chatted, like we always did. And my.. 'Boyfriend' and I never really ran out of topics that's how wonderfully we bonded. That's okay, but are we really 'serious' and 'official' right now? I had no idea. Sleeping next to him was like holding onto a teddy all night, his chest was that soft. We cuddled and sang, and ate, all in the middle of the night. He told me about where all he'd be going for tour, and that he wasn't sure when he'd see me again. That night was even better than my birthday.

I had truly fallen further for my best friend, just in one night. 

Next morning, Justin woke me up some time before he got ready. "I'm gonna go princess." He whispered in my ear. I shot up from the bed immediately, and ran to my room. I washed my face and quickly tied my hair and threw on whatever I saw. I went back to him and he seemed a bit happy and surprised at the same time. "I'll come with you till the airport." He held my hand and Kenny giggled on seeing us walking out so cutely. We got into the huge car that waited for us outside the hotel. The two of us sat in the backseat. The entire journey we stayed silent and I lay my head on his shoulder. When we reached, I go off behind him. There was a lot of security, so no media person was allowed to even enter the airport premises. The bags were unloaded from the car, and taken inside. It was only the two of us standing next to the vehicle. "I guess this is it." "I will text you all day, and we will Skype and I'll send you lots of virtual kisses." Made me cry happy tears. He held me tight and flashed a smile that made me forget everything else in the world. 

Justin gently lay his hand on my cheek and came closer, and then our lips met. Sparks flew from inside of me, I felt as if I was in some other universe. He kissed me till we were out of breath, and then pulled away. He walked up to the driver, and told him - "Drop her off safely, she's everything to me." It kept getting better. All this was perfect.. Except for the fact that he was leaving. 

"Bye buddy, I love you." He said to me, and began walking towards the entry. But then, he tuned, and, ran to me-- he took his hat off, and put it on my head. "Yours." He quickly went away and waved at me till he couldn't be seen. 

-kudrat xx 

The Greatest Birthday - 23

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Your POV

I was a bit confused at that point of time. "Okay.. What?" I asked Niall tensely. He stayed mum for a second and looked to the ground. He looked back at me. "I'm not really sure, but you know Justin's talking about you all the time. When you were in LA with him, he called me just to tell that he loves seeing you happy and everything. And--" I cut him off. What? "No no no, wait, Niall, are you serious? No!" He continued. Maybe it was the truth after all. But he's my friend, and he was just affectionate to me because I recently had a break up! "Let's get this straight. I think he likes you." I held myself back and didn't let my emotions out. Did I feel the same? No.. Did I? Screw this. "Let's just go upstairs." I pushed the door and walked into the elevator. There was an awkward silence. 

We went to Justin's room, where Harry and him were recording on the computer. I can't tell you how perfect they sounded together, it was pleasure to my lucky ears. And then they heard the door swing open, so the two of them stopped and looked back. "Look who's here." Harry smirked. I'm so done with this boy he's getting on my nerves now. "What were you doing?" Justin asked. I desperately NEED to talk with Cassie right now. "We were having a talk." Good boy, Niall. "Actually, uh.. I've got some work, I'll see you guys later." I opened the door and before I could walk out, I felt Justin follow me from behind. "Listen we're having dinner at the restaurant across the street, see ya." 

I shut my room's door and immediately called Cassie up. "Y/N!" She shouted on the phone. "Cas I've got to tell you something like really very important. Hear me out." She got into her serious mode for once and listened to every single thing I told her. "Okay..wow." Was all she said after thinking. "Listen. My deep thoughts tell me that.. Wait what do you think?" I just sat there wondering for a while. "Hello?" "Yeah I'm still here." "You didn't answer me." I wasn't pretty sure, but I did feel something within me, whenever he touched me. "Yes." I proudly said. "What?" "Yes I feel kinda something." Cassie's like really good at this stuff. "Okay fine. But you're not sure about him right? So wait for him to do something. And then call me, because my best friend is soon going to be dating THE Justin Bieber!" I chuckled a bit. "Yeah Cas, I'll call you later. Thanks so much." "Bye-bye, I'm waiting for the call, girl!" She's so hyper, that she gets me hyped sometimes. 

I told my parents that I wouldn't be joining them for dinner. "Why, what are you doing?" Dad very harshly asked. "I'm going out with my friends, you two have fun!" He suddenly became pleased, as if I had told him something really great. Honestly I thing they both have been banging all day, that's what it seems like. Excuse my language, it's just the truth! 

I put on one of my decent looking comfortable outfits.  I looked into the mirror. "Wow, you look sexy." (Yes I said that to myself) (Justin says it all the time to himself) (So I got this habit too) (Why am I putting all this in brackets?) My reflection said to me, "Yes, you look hot." Thanks! I texted Cassie because she told me to inform her 'minute-to-minute' I wasn't really going to, but what's the harm anyways. She's trying to help, and I love her! Am I sounding gay? Doesn't matter. *Bleep* I from heard inside my bag. I took my phone out and new picture message alert- from the most unexpected person on planet. Zach. I'm seriously going to murder him. I told him that I'm just done with him when he met me at the coffee shop that day. 

I opened that text, and it was a photo... Of the love band he gifted me. He hadn't written anything, just that one photo. I used to cry whenever I thought of it, but since I returned from Cali, I didn't even think about him, not even once. I just saw it, but didn't bother replying. One second, and another bleep. This time I'll-- oh it's from Justin. "im starving, come on out;)" He seriously makes it sound as if he wants to eat me. No that sounds wrong. Another message. "I know you saw it.. Talk to me." How about no Zach. "u know how big a pervert u are. don't talk to me." I think that does it. Concentrating on Justin right now, I went downstairs. He was standing in the lobby, near the door. Even though his pants were literally falling down and everything, he looked perfect. As always. 

There wasn't paparazzi or crowds, but Kenny still came with us. "Are you okay if we walk it there?" He asked me like a gentleman. "Not at all buddy. But you need to give me a ride." I made a sad face like a baby's. Before hopping on I whispered in his ear, "Don't you dare drop me this time." "Yeah yeah, I won't." He giggled cutely. Kenny shook his head, we obviously behaved like kids! Justin carefully waited for the traffic light, and then ran across the road with me sitting comfortably on his strong back. We went to the restaurant and Kenny stood near the door, security security. 

We found a vacant booth, so we sat there. "Niall and Harry?" I asked, looking around. "No, it's just us." Awks. Fun. Awks. Awkfun. We did our random and stupid bestfriend talks that we usually did, and then ate lots of food. I was nearly full, and then, he ordered dessert. We shared an ice-cream, with that chocolate coming out of a little cake like a fountain. We were almost done. Kenny told Justin to go out from the back door, because some photographers were moving around the front entrance. 

We walked around in the narrow lane behind all the shops. Nobody else was there, just the two of us. "So.. You leave tomorrow." I sadly said. "Yeah. I'll call you everyday." My face lit up on it's own. And suddenly.. He stopped? "There's something I want you to know before I go." I stopped too, and stared in his eyes for a moment. Strange feeling in my mind.. "Y/N I.. I really don't know how to tell you this, I'll try." I smiled at the ground. Adorableness. "I have no idea when this happened, but I think that..I'm in love with you." 

My heart stopped beating. 

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New Beginnings. Chapter 5: Dates & Dreams.

Hey girlfriend(; sup? That's cool, thanks for reading sexy. Haha I'm in a good mood, hopefully you are too. And if you aren't, then my story will make things bettterrrrr(; just relax and read baby, let your mind be freeeeee... Anyways, here's chap 5, how ya likin it so far?

SATURDAY, OCTOBER 6TH, 2012

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I went upstairs to change and get ready for our little get together as I would call it. Not a date, just two friends hanging out. I wasn't really up for going out, but Justin insisted that he take me out for a late dinner.

I sat in my room with a smile on my face as I got ready. Even though I never cared for Justin, I didn't know why. Fangirling just wasn't my thing until about... NOW. I was going out to dinner with Justin Bieber, how many people can say that? Not very many. I was lucky, kind of.

I put on a cute <http://www.polyvore.com/date_night/set?id=79571274> outfit and danced around my room for a minute before calming myself down and heading downstairs. Justin was standing by the door, waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs.

"You look beautiful." he said.

I don't think that he even realized that he had said it, by the look on his face. I blushed and took his hand as he opened the door. What we saw, was not what I expected though.

My two friends, the ones who ditched me at the party, Lexi and Lauren, were standing in front of us. They looked at Justin with confusion and then at me with smiles. They started freaking out, being fans of Justin, and I'd never seen them like this before.

"OMG! This is why you haven't been answering your phone? You're going on a date with Justin Bieber!?" Lexi yelled.

I just laughed along with Justin. But wait, where was my phone anyways?

"It's not a date, just a get together." I said.

"That's what she thinks." Justin mumbled.

"I heard that!" I yelled.

We all laughed and the girls would NOT let us out of my house before talking to Justin. I wanted to just push them out and stay home with him, they were so forceful.

"Okay, you'll see him later alright? No let us go." I said.

"Fine." Lauren said grumpily.

I sighed and Justin took my hand, leading me out of my house and towards his car. He wasn't driving, because then there might be problems, but at least we could sit together without me on his lap this time.

When we got to the restaurant, there were flashes everywhere, I could barely see in front of me. Justin's camera crew still followed us around, trying to get as much footage as possible. They really didn't care how much, as long as they filmed it just in case.

We ate dinner and talked and laughed the whole time. I could see people out of the corner of my eye snapping pictures 'secretly' as they ate dinner. Most of them adults, probably sending those pictures to there daughters who were fans.

"So tell me about yourself." Justin said as he ate.

"Me? Oh gosh, that's the one question I hate because always blank." I admitted.

He laughed and we just continued talking. I learned a lot about his life, and he actually learned a lot about me while we told stories of ourselves. He just asked random questions the whole time, not caring what it was.

"So do you have a boyfriend?" he asked as he paid the bill.

"Ha, no. I'm definitely single."

"How is someone as gorgeous as you single?" he asked with a wink.

"Are you trying to flirt with me?"

"Maybe..." his voice trailed off.

We both laughed and stood up to leave. Wait, was he actually flirting with me? I couldn't stop blushing as we left the building. The paparazzi's yelled questions like, "HEY JUSTIN HOW'D YOU SAVE HER?" and "ARE YOU DATING?". It was annoying, but at least it only lasted a few seconds.

When we got back to my house, I slipped off my shoes and changed into pajamas right away. Justin came up to my room and we talked while everyone slept. It was late now, around midnight, and Pattie went back to the hotel to sleep. Justin was tired too, but we kept talking and talking and I begged him to stay longer.

"I have to leave now, but I'll see you tomorrow alright?" he said as he yawned.

"No, don't leave. Stay-"

"What? Like- stay the night?" he asked.

"Please?" I begged.

"Well if you insist!"

Justin smiled and sat back down on my bed. He eventually laid down and we laid next to each other, talking, laughing, and just having random stories being told. We turned the lights off and stared at my glow in the dark ceiling covered in quotes. Yeah, I did that awhile ago because I was bored.

He told me everything about the random things that happen at his concert. He says it's hilarious when girls throw their bras on stage, he said that he's been hit by plenty of them. And phones, he said girls throw not only themselves at him, but their phones. I found that pretty amazing, you'd end up with like 6 phones by the end of the night... probably more than that!

"Justin how do you do all of this?" I asked as I turned my head towards him.

"It's hard, but I just do. I've spent so much time having my life like this, I'm just used to it now."

"But the girls, they all want you. It must get annoying, especially when you have a girlfriend."

Justin didn't respond. He just kind of, laid there and stared up. I think I hit a soft spot, on one of the toughest people I knew for only knowing him for a day. I sat up and rested on my elbows, leaning back and turning towards Justin.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, can we go to bed?"

I licked my lips before nodding and getting out of bed. Well, someone was upset... I felt a bit bad for talking about it, but it's not like I knew; at all!

I grabbed a blanket and Justin helped me drag a mattress into my room. I made him a little bed, right next to mine and after he changed into some of my brother's clothes, we both laid down.

It was completely quiet, there was nothing to say. My ceiling glowed down on both of us, lighting up our faces dimly.

He told me everything about the random things that happen at his concert. He says it's hilarious when girls throw their bras on stage, he said that he's been hit by plenty of them. And phones, he said girls throw not only themselves at him, but their phones. I found that pretty amazing, you'd end up with like 6 phones by the end of the night... probably more than that! 

"Justin how do you do all of this?" I asked as I turned my head towards him.

"It's hard, but I just do. I've spent so much time having my life like this, I'm just used to it now."

"But the girls, they all want you. It must get annoying, especially when you have a girlfriend." Justin didn't respond.

He just kind of, laid there and stared up. I think I hit a soft spot, on one of the toughest people I knew for only knowing him for a day.

I sat up and rested on my elbows, leaning back and turning towards Justin.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, can we go to bed?"

I licked my lips before nodding and getting out of bed. Well, someone was upset... I felt a bit bad for talking about it, but it's not like I knew; at all!

I grabbed a blanket and Justin helped me drag a mattress into my room. I made him a little bed, right next to mine and after he changed into some of my brother's clothes, we both laid down.

It was completely quiet, there was nothing to say. My ceiling glowed down on both of us, lighting up our faces dimly.

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To Build A Home.

Here's the one shot I promised! Lisa, I'm sorry that I didn't use your name, but it just wouldn't have been as better as it could for the other fans. Hope you understand! Anyways, the video attached to this, YOU HAVE TO PLAY IT IF YOU READ. PLEASE, PLAY THE DAMN SONG.

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I woke up, and I still had tear stains on my face from the previous night. I checked my text messages and there was one from Justin. I wasn't in the mood to hear his sorry's at the moment, but I decided to still open the text.

FROM: My Baby<3

I love you. Never forget that I have always loved you, and always will. You’ll always be mine. Forever you and me.

But no matter what he said, I was still hurt. I didn't know what to think anymore...

FLASHBACK

I sat waiting at the airport to pick Justin up from his tour. I was so anxious to see him. Him and I had been dating for 3 years now. I was so glad that throughout all of this, we made it through everything.

I could hear my name being called by a very familiar voice I turned around to see Justin standing there looking cute as ever. He had his grey and red snapback on backwards, a YMCMB sweater and red pants sagging. He pulled them up and ran towards me. I laughed and started towards him.

"(YN)!" he yelled.

“Justin!” I smiled and ran into his arms.

“Hi baby.” He smiled widely and brought me into his arms and held me tight nuzzling his face into my neck.

“I missed you so much, how was you’re tour?” I asked as we held each other.

“It was great! But I missed you the whole time.” He replied before kissing me.

Man did I miss that feeling. We started walking out of the crowded-with-girls airport to our car. I was so excited to have him home! I couldn't explain it!

“Let’s go back to my house.” I said.

I grabbed his hand and Kenny brought his bags to our car. He shoved them all in the trunk and I got into the drivers side.

“Have fun you two! Drive safely.” Kenny waved.

“Later bro!” Justin said getting in the passenger side.

Finally I had him back. It'd been so long and I just wanted to be with him no matter what or where we were.

Later that night Justin held me closely on the couch. We sat watching a movie that he'd brought back with him. Soon before it started, he got up to make popcorn. I pulled the blanket over my shoulders and waited for him to come back. Just as I got comfortable, his phone lit up from a text message.

It was from Selena.

FROM: Sel

Come over to my house later and I’ll give you-know-what to you(;

I ignored it because I just wanted to see what he would do, see if he would actually go. I knew that he was still friends with her, and I didn't care about that. But I didn't know that he was cheating on me with her. But maybe he wasn't... Maybe, Just maybe it was a mistake...

He came back in with the popcorn and checked his phone right away. He quickly responded and put it down, but face down this time. We shared the popcorn and it was hard to focus on the movie because my mind was just filled with different thoughts.

Was he gonna go cheat on me? Was he already cheating? Why was he cheating? Am I not good enough? What’s wrong with me?

My thought’s were interrupted by Justin looking at his phone constantly and replying fastly. I closed my eyes and blinked away the tears, making sure he didn't notice.

“Uh, my mom just text me saying she wants to, uh see me tonight. Do you wanna come over tomorrow and we'll go somewhere and do something?” He suggested.

Just then my heart dropped. He really was cheating on me, and I had no idea what to think of him now. Why? My only question was why.

“You’re not going to see your mom.” my voice cracked.

“Huh? Y-yes I am.” He stuttered.

“You don't have to lie to me anymore. Just go see your other girlfriend, Selena.”

He was silent for a minute. And that's how I knew that I was right. Tears started coming to my eyes and I tried brushing them away quickly.

“I knew it.”

A tear rolled down my cheek. We were both standing now, our favorite movie playing in the background as we stared at each other from across the room.

“(YN)…” He spoke softly.

“Get out.”

“Ple-” He started but I cut him off.

“I said get out!” My voice cracked.

“Just hear me out..”

“No! You were gonna go cheat on me, but now I guess it’s not cheating if we’re over. This is the last straw, you knew the consequences and I'm done with you, for-... ever... Justin please just leave. I can’t handle this right now, please.”

“One last kiss?” He asked quietly.

“No.. just please.. go.”

He hung his head and wiped and tear from his eye. We were both upset, but I didn't understand why he was because obviously I wasn't good enough for him.

“I love you.” He spoke before leaving.

FLASHBACK OVER

My phone started ringing, and I decided to answer it. Before answering, I looked at the screen. It wasn't Justin though, it was Sel. Why the hell would she call me? To tell me that Justin's over there and they're having sex like she wanted? I pressed the green button and pulled the phone up to my ear.

“(YN)! It’s Selena, you have to go to Justin’s house now! He’s threatening to commit suicide! (YN), he was coming over to see me yesterday because I got the engagement ring in the mail. It was for you, but he didn’t wanna send it to his house because you might have found it. Please just go over there now!” she yelled.

“Oh my god... O-okay I’m going.” I said.

I shoved my phone in my sweater pocket and ran out the door not bothering to put any shoes on. I could only focus on Justin. I got in my car and sped off to his house. My hands shook as I squeezed the steering wheel tightly. I was scared to death that Justin might actually do something that would hurt us both.

I got out of my car and rushed to the door. With my shaky hands, I could barely stick the key in and turn the lock. I shoved the door open and took a glance around before dodging towards the stairs.

“JUSTIN?!” I screamed and rushed upstairs.

I pushed each and every door open with my heart beating faster than ever. I pushed his bedroom door open at the end of the hall and there was nothing. I ran into his bathroom and saw him weak on the floor with an empty pill bottle beside him.

“No..” I said weakly with tears in my eyes.

I knelt by his side and grabbed his hand in mine. I elevated his head and rocked back and forth as tears rolled down my cheek one after another.

“I love you princess..” he weakly whispered.

I took my shaky hand and reached in my pocket for my phone. I got my phone out and went to dial 911, but his shaking hand stopped me.

“It’s too late baby.. I’m almost gone... B-but there’s a note on my bed for you. I want to you go read it and keep it forever.” he spoke slowly.

“This is all my fault..” my voice cracked.

“No baby shh, it’s not. I just- I love you so much.. I want you to keep this ring. You don’t have to wear it. Just keep it. I love you with all my heart, and when I said that I'd love you until the day that I died, I meant it. Never forget that, baby... I love you.” he said then kissed my cheek.

He laid back down and I held his hand, crying, until it soon went limp. His chest stopped raising up and down and I was in disbelief. Me breath hitched in my throat and I pushed on his chest.

"No! Justin! Please don't leave me! Not like this! I-I love you!" I screamed.

I was in shock. Tears streamed down my face as I held his hand screaming with everything I had. I didn't know what to do anymore, Justin was my whole world.

I looked at the ring and twirled it around in my fingers. It said, 'Forever, you and me. {12.31.10}' on the inside. I shakily put it on my finger, still in shock of what just happened.

I couldn't feel my body anymore, I was completely drained of everything. I wanted Justin to open his beautiful brown eyes again, and stare into them. I wanted his voice to echo through my ears. I wanted him to chase me around the house and tackle me down to tickle me. But now that was all gone.

I didn’t bother to go read the note. I was too broken to do anything but lay there with Justin. I stared at the ring on my finger and looked up towards the sink. I stood and opened the cabinet, finding one last pill bottle sitting in the vacant area. I looked back down at Justin and opened the cap of the bottle. I knew that he wouldn't want me to do this, but I had to.

I swallowed them one by one with water until the bottle was empty. I laid beside him and put his limp arm around me. My head rested on his chest one last time, but this time it didn't rise... nor fall. I could see a faint light as my eyes became droopy. I couldn't keep them open anymore. Just as they were about to close, I could hear sirens and the door being kicked open. But I was already gone, going to him... To be with him again...

“Forever... You and me, Justin.” I weakly whispered.

-Ana.